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The Cab - Vegas Skies...
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I'll hang from your lips instead of the gallows 
of heartache that hang from above

Christine Danielle Teo
Catholic Junior College



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Thursday, December 25, 2008
9:12 AM
Still packing ):
I hate packing. I detest packing.

Anyway, pounding headache got worse yesterday and fell asleep in front of the computer again. -.-"
Daniel's already left. I'm leaving soon! :D

9:12 AM

3:17 AM


3:17 AM

2:56 AM
Darling's leaving in a couple of hours, to Hong Kong, and I'll be leaving for Hong Kong later in the afternoon. Heh! :D

I'll miss you!

Today's been a good pday, pretty good. I've got my honey back, he's no longer gloomy, and down, he encourages me, and every little thing he does now, I'll treasure. I've never treasured or appreciated the things he done for me this much, but now I do (:

Anyways, watched Yes Man with Nig and Dad, and had dinner at Pontini at the Grand Copthorne Waterfront Hotel. The squid ink spaghetti was delicious, I loved it the most, followed by the pizza! It was delicious, oh the best's the Tiramisu and Warm Choc Cake! Gotta go with Dan one day, he'll love it (: His fave tiramisu (:

Went for midnight mass and it was good! Fr. Augustin suprisingly didn't take as long as I expected.

Dad and I ust had a couple of drinks. Vodkaaaa! I drank the most amongst the 3 of us. And I can actually feel my heart beating and chest warming up, and my head is throbbing a little so I figured I'd blog before I really am wasted. Oh, and Dad's very interested and excited about Nig drinking cause he wants to know his secrets. See below for concrete proof. And I think my dad's the drunk one. He's talking to me on MSN when he's only like less than 1 metere away from me! And now there's only my iTunes playing because all 3 of us are on the desktop/laptops.

MichaelHector says: same same lah think yr bro is drunk... he just say huh! for no particular good reason... scary
CHRISTINE; Young men no longer suddenly catch their breath. says: I KNOW
CHRISTINE; Young men no longer suddenly catch their breath. says: your son
MichaelHector says: maybe another 5 mins he will tell us all his secrets.. i am patiently waiting for him to speak up..
CHRISTINE; Young men no longer suddenly catch their breath. says: LOL
CHRISTINE; Young men no longer suddenly catch their breath. says: give him more boooze mannnn
MichaelHector says: no,, else he will get an itchy reaction then no longer fun.
MichaelHector says: wait for him to open his mouth
CHRISTINE; Young men no longer suddenly catch their breath. says: HAHA

2:56 AM

Wednesday, December 24, 2008
2:24 AM
Okay, its been rather eventful. On the Sunday, 21st November, John, Nig and I met up at 6pm to have dinner and we received Daniel back from his Japan trip. We then went to Coffee Bean and stayed all the way till like 5.30am, before we headed to Terminal 1, to send Cheston off. Saw the many many shooters who were going to China to spend Christmas and New Year, training. Lol.

Hope they're doing well there!

Oh and John took this picture of me WHILE I WAS ASLEEP! I know, I can't believe he did this to me!

Monday was nothing much because it was just making my nails, manicure and pedicure spa. I still love it even having done it so many times, its so relaxing, you know? Anyways, I love and am very proud of myself for the colour I chose for my nails and the design for nail art I chose for my toes (:

Trained today and I was pretty happy because my form was coming back and I shot not too bad, but there's still a little catching up to go, of course. I lose hold of my emotions halfway and let them got the better of me, after the 50th shot, so I didn't really get to train all properly today, because one quarter of the time was spent siting outside stoning, spacing out and well, thinking and..

Anyways, Dan came over to give me an unexpected surprise with milk tea (: And we made our way back to home. Went out to meet Jo a while later to get our ingredients we need and we made Shepard's Pie together. Fel and Jon couldn't make it last minute. But its alright, I know they would have came if they could (:

After all 3 of us washed up, and showered, we tried to leave the house ASAP but as usual, we were (according to Dan) fashionably late. Because "the important people always go late". HAHA. Okay, thats Jo's and my theory. But just to clear things up a little, I swear we tried to be on time, we planned to be. But apparently, things didn't go as planned. Reached there at 8.45pm, which is 1hr45mins late because the party started at 7pm. Our Shepard's Pie received prety much compliments from our friends though, and Nig says he likes the beef. Haha, Dan did most of the job actually.

Dan stayed for a while before having to make his way back, and I'm glad he was around and that he got to meet my classmates whom I spend so much time with and love so dearly. Anyways, I got Aloy's gift for the gift exchange, and I'm glad I did! (:

Today's party was amazing. Dressing Justin up as Santa. He wore my heels and showed off his sexy legs. Yes, he has lady legs, only with extra (much) hair. And Melvin strutting and flaunting his stuff. His balloon-boobs and balloon-butt. It was all too hilarious.

Thanks Aloy for the beautifully wrapped present! And more importantly, for the "sister-hood". It amazes me how we never talked much even while we sat together, until we became the "sisters" with Jo. I really enjoy talking to you, and thank you for helping me hook and unhook he prawning stuff whenever we go together! :D
Thanks Jon, for the adorable sweets and the Disney coin from Japan! Thank you for your constant checking up on me whenever I'm done, and it amazes me how well you know me too. You actually can tell when I'm down and when I'm not, through SMS or through the phone. I'll always bother you, whether or not things are fine, HAHA, thank you for all the encouragement! (: I'll always remember this holiday as the holiday spent most with you and Jo! (:
Thanks Justin for the note, I realyl appreciate it! And though we've gone through ups and downs, (many downs), but I believe we've overcomed all that, and I'm really glad with what we have today, this friendship, its something I really value, and I guess we can really say, we've come a loooong way! :D
Thanks Mark for the lovely gift and the really sweet note, I'm guessing its chocolates, Mark! Especially since our standard gift to one another has been chocolates since you set tradition! :D
Thanks Sab (my Ratatta and shopping-cum-Hogwarts hommie) for the hilarious note. Don't worry babe, I'm only a level away from evolving to Blastoise. HAHA!
Thanks Yoke, my fantastic PW group member who loves cam-whoring; thanks for all the effort you've put in, I'm really glad and honoured to be in the same group with you! <3 onblur="try {parent.deselectBloggerImageGracefully();} catch(e) {}" href="http://1.bp.blogspot.com/_DnOB_oF1ytI/SVEtdejInkI/AAAAAAAABhA/2x-Qg40vXbk/s1600-h/haha.jpg">

Pictures taken at the party will be updated another time!

2:24 AM

Monday, December 22, 2008
10:28 PM
I don't wanna blog about today now. Maybe later.


Why's everything the way it is?

10:28 PM

12:15 PM
I'm a little disheartened and scared, and its scaring me. Disappointment too.

12:15 PM

At long last, back safe and sound.
Sunday, December 21, 2008
9:30 PM
Dan's back in Singapore, and I'm really really happy that he is.

John, Nig and I met at about 6.20pm and they had dinner first before we waited for Daniel to return. Saw Dan's dad, Deb and him, I couldn't recognize him for a moment, he looked different and was dressed differently, I really missed him.

Anyways, we hung around for a while before his mom arrived and picked them up. And my silly thing is now at home. He must be tired, I know. I love you, Hun. (:

9:30 PM

FINALLY, at long last.
3:28 PM
I'm looking forward to Dan's return. He's coming back today, and I miss him.

Didn't sleep, hadn't been able to. I miss you.

3:28 PM

2:13 AM
Came back at about 12.30am to 1am, went for dinner/supper with the shooters as a farewell dinner for Cheston before he leaves for China. Dinner and supper with Mark, Akshay, John, Cheston and Nigel. Had a long debate with them over the chicken and the egg topic.

I still maintain my stand that the egg came before the chicken from a scientific point of view, and the chicken came first from a religious point of view.

I have tons of things to tell Daniel and I can't wait till he's back.

I don't know if I'll be staying over in the airport tomorrow with the rest of them or I'll just meet them at the break of dawn to send Cheston off. Either one, Dan will be back by then. I really miss him.

2:13 AM

Saturday, December 20, 2008
1:30 PM
I just read the newspaper and actor Chew Chor Ming has just been diagnosed with muscle astrophy, and there isn't a cure for it. According to the article, he experienced back aches in 1998 and it was diagnosed as a slip disc. Back aches and slip disc, it all sounds familiar. Like what I ad in Sec 3..



Perfect: Closest to perfection anyone can be. (HAHA) Kidding.
Tall: YES!
In your pajamas: No.
Lefthanded: No.

Friend(s) you saw: Felicia and Joanne.
Talked to on the phone: John.
Person to text you: Cheston.
Is today better than yesterday? Its only halfway, its too soon to tell.

Number: 4
Color: Red
Food: Sushi
Place: Many many places

Q: What was the first thing you did this morning when you got up?
Breathe in a whiff of Dan's cologne on his shirt.
Q: Do you have anything bothering you
As of now, yes.
Q: What's the last movie you watched
in theaters?
Q: Where is the last place you went?
Cafe Cartel at Siglap.
Q. Do you smile a lot?
Q: Do you wish upon stars?
At times.
Q: Are you a friendly person?
I'd say yes.
Q: Where did you sleep last night?
The wooden platform till 4am then I went up to my bed.
Q: Why did you sleep there?
I fell asleep while using the com.
Q: When was the last time you cried?
Q: What was your last thought before going to sleep ?
Q: Rate life as of right now, one being bad, ten being great?
Q: What do you hear right now?
Q: Does anything hurt you right now?
Q: What's your favorite month?

Are you missing someone right now?
Are you single?
Are you tired?
Are your parents still married?

Real name: Christine
Nick Name: Crooked Eyes, Crooked Spine, Sleeping (Beauty) (HAHA).
Age: 17
Eye color: Dark Brown
Male or female: Female
Single: No
Crushing: In love already.
Smart: Yes.
Hair color: Black
Sweats or Jeans: Shorts.
Phone or Camera: Phone
Health freak: Far from it
Righty or lefty: Righty
Smoke or Drink: Nope.

First award: Baby competitions.
First enemy: Dont really have anyone I hate that much to consider them as my enemies.
First pet: Trini my pet dog in Sec 2. Oh wait, I had fishes, hamsters and a rabbit before it.
First vacation : Hong Kong when I was 2 years old I think.

Eating: No.
Drinking: No.
Listening to: The television and dota.
Plans for tommorow: No plans yet!
Waiting for: Mass later (:

Lips or eyes: Both in the case of Dan.
Shorter or taller: Taller
Romantic or spontaneous: Romantic and spontaneous both at the right times.
Sensitive or loud: Sensitive.
Hook-up or in a relationship: In a relationship.

Drank hard drinks: I dont think so. I normally mix.
Lost glasses/contacts: Maybe contacts.
Ran away from home: For a few hours which is barely considered.
Broken someone's heart: Unfortunately yes.
Been arrested: No.

Do you like someone: Its already love, no longer like.
Are you seriously happy with where you are in life: Yes I am.

1:30 PM

Last day away.
1:21 PM
I really really miss Dan now, I've missed him since the 15th when I sent him off at the airport and I really wish he'd come back soon. And I know he will, because he's coming back tomorrow.

I'm feeling a little of mixed emotions as of now, because I'm really puzzled and confused and I have no idea what I should do. I don't know if telling or not telling is the right choice. I dont know what I'll get as response. I don't know what to expect anymore. But I'll stay strong, because I know I have to.

1:21 PM

5th day; You're my Edward Cullen.
Friday, December 19, 2008
11:46 PM

YES YES, I watched Twilight today! GAHHHH.

It was so good, I loved it! EDWARD CULLEN (Rob Pattinson) IS A CHARMER! Its so good, now I want my own vampire too (not that I haven't already have mine :D). I can't help thinking that together with Bella Swan, Edward's already swept me off my feet too. Its like the part where he piggybacks her and leaps out of his room. I can't help swooning over Edward Cullen, but more importantly, can't wait for my very own Edward Cullen to return from Japan!

Watched Twilight at Lido with Jo and Fel, and after that shopped with Jo and we both bought clothes from Pull&Bear. Went hunting for my Christmas gift to Dan, and I already have a rough idea what to buy (:

11:46 PM

Soduku, when I'm missing you.
3:50 AM
Oh and its 3.50am now but I'm gonna "get started" on my History homework after completing one Soduku puzzle. That is if I do not fall asleep from attempting to complete Soduku.

I miss you.

3:50 AM

4th day gone; over-protective seniors against bacardi
2:55 AM
So anyway, today I met Jo at TPY and we headed to NYP with Subway to support Fel on her hockey match. Its CJ against AJ today, and CJ won in the boys event, while AJ won in the girls event. I wont comment much on it, only that I actually quite enjoyed the match because it kept me on the edge of my seat (HAHA, like a movie), and if I were to ever go see another hockey match, I'll wear short sleeved shirts, in the hope of getting a more even tan.

OH! This reminds me, I was so depressed for like 0.34123456890 seconds because I just went swimming cum mini-tanning-session(in the pool) today morning before meeting Jo and all, and Nig told me my tan was slightly more even and at NYP it was damn ass hot and I wore a 3 quarter top. So all the "slightly-more-even-tanning" has gone to waste. ):

Anyhow, the match was good and we practically spent our entire afternoon there. After the match I made my way down to Sean's house for the shooting barbeque with the bang-bang people. I was late, but not as late as Jojo. Anyways, I tried the counting methods to the number of stops again and once more, very retardedly failed. I counted 18 stops when it was actually already 21 stops. How the hell right? I know. Thank God Sean called in time.

Oh, I helped Mark start the fire and was obsessed with making the "cottage" with the charcoal, and my fingers were black :O, but I got tired halfway so I went in to the Room and refused to get out because I was enjoying the air-con inside, and then I played Hangman with Jojo, Pet, Maple, Ismail, Val, Huixin, Kai, Don, Clarence, Pokk, Debbie, Kimberly, Mark, Chris.L, etc etc for quite a while, but it was fun because it was so challenging thinking of something they couldn't get (esp since Maple was really good). The best was when only Maple, Pet, Kai, Debbie and Mark were in the room and seeing hat they were all Science students I decided to give them Historical figures like General Bautista, etc.

And Sean brought in Bacardi which is 40% if I'm not wrong. And Clarence made Sinyeanxzx take 1 shot and he flushed and was as red as a baboon's butt. Haha. I have pictures which I'll upload some other time because I'm too lazy now. Anyways, I managed to take one cup (mixed of course, not pure!), before Ismail and Sean turned into my nannies for the day because they said my face was red too, but honestly, its the heat from all that barbequing, and they banned me from it. They said I was a minor but gave it to Mark and the others and they're all 17 too. Talk about fairness in the world ): They think that I'll be wasted if I continue drinking and refuse to let me prove my point that my capacity for alcohol consumption is actually pretty high and that I can hold my liquor pretty well. So one cup was about all that I could take/was given tonight.

I was so bent on getting Andrew dunked, but he managed to fight back! (no fun la, please!) And then he and Maple and many many others, believed that I should have been dunked because I'm Vice-President and Captain and Chris.L who's the President, has already been dunked, and Ismail, my predecessor, was also dunked, so I should be the one (rightfully) to go. Heh, fortunately, being a girl over-rules everything. Actually not really, Andrew and Ismail said "all the more we should dunk you cause you're a girl". How helpful, I know. I've got great seniors. Anyway, those dunked went around hugging people to get them drenched (as much as possible) too. It was a sight. Really.

Thanks Sean for waiting with me and walking me (and Ziyi. HAHA) out to meet my Dad after the BBQ ended. It was really nice talking to seniors whom I've not talked to in a while, and I enjoyed myself today, very very much. Even though we had problems starting the fire, and everyone starved till the end, it really didn't matter. I'm glad I came for the BBQ because I got to catch up with my belovveddddd shooting seniors.

Oh anyways, for gift exchange I got Chris's gift which was a CD (FAITH!). Thanks Accomplice, I'm glad its something to do with Christ that I got (:

2:55 AM

3rd day away from home.
Wednesday, December 17, 2008
11:29 PM

I really really wish time would past faster.

Went to check my degree today, my right eye decreased by 25 degree but astigmatism increased by 25 degree ): After that went to Suntec to meet Mommy and Daddy for lunch, before heading to NLB to meet Jo.

After printing some stuff, we headed shopping! GAHHH! :D Went to Suntec, Parco, Marina Square, Raffles City and we eventually went to Parkway Parade to surprise Heidi who's working at Chocz only to get surprised by Sam who went there too. How coincidental. Heh heh! Bought the gift for the gift-exchange tmr at the shooting BBQ which is to be held in Sean's house. (:

Reached home at 10.30pm because I promised Mommy I'd be home earlier today. Oh and I had 2 Yami Yoghurts in a day :s

I shall swim tomorrow morning!

I miss you, Daniel.

11:29 PM

Day 2.
1:04 AM
I still miss Daniel, I come to my blog and hotmail the first thing I'm logged on in the hope of finding some form of message from him to tell me he's safe and sound. He promised he'd email me or tag me if there are computers available in the hotel, but I know its not very likely that there will be any..

Anyways, today I trained with Rich and Mark at Safra, beore heading home to bathe and change into shorts to meet Jo. We then headed to AMK to meet Fel. Went to her house to catch Indie-flick; Karho-Na-ho or however it is spelt. It made me cry! And as usual Jo, that sick heartless woman didn't cry and just laughed. No, give her some credit. She did feel sad.

Talked to Fel's sister Vanessa and her mom for a while more before her other sister Melissa came back and soon after Jo and I had to leave because it was already like 11pm. Reached home at about 12.15am? Because Dad very kindly fetched me from the train station (:

I'm on my bed with all the other stuffed toys on the floor except the bear Dan and me made together for my birthday gift at Vivo's Make-A-Bear workshop. As well as his Topman tee which he's left with me. He heavily-cologned it intentionally so that I'd have some sort of company and comfort I can seek in while he's away. My room's filled with his cologne smell now. And I miss him terribly. I'm glad he brought Dantine bear back to me, because it gets me through these cold nights without him better, and it serves as a reminder to me that he'll always be my one and only.

I hope he's having fun in Japan and is safe. Love you, Daniel.


Tagged by Sally.
The rules and regulations:
1. Each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things/habits/little known facts about themself.
2. People who get tagged need to write their own 10 weird things/habits/little known facts.
3. At the end, player needs to choose 10 people to be tagged and list their names.
4. No tags back!

10 weird things/habits/little known facts about me.
1. I'm a completely different person as a girlfriend and as a friend.
2. I automatically stop checking guys out when I'm attached to Daniel.
3. I hate durians.
4. I have a soft spot for cute nerds.
5. I have a huge ego and high self-esteem.
6. I only paint my own nails and make an exception for my mom, but refuses paint anyone else's nails.
7. I am nocturnal and go high at night. Very high.
8. I am a child model and have done ads for Singtel and Levis, etc.
9. I get turned off by feets.
10. I have no idea how to turn on the stove.

The 10 people:
Wee Siang
Zheng Kai

Come home soon

1:04 AM

I'll be there till the stars don't shine.
Monday, December 15, 2008
9:21 PM
My Daniel's on his way to Japan now ): His flight left at 8.40pm.

Went swimming with him in the morning at Aranda, we actually had the entire pool to ourself cause no one was there. Ah well. After swimming we went for lunch at Downtown East. Had Fish&Co Express.

Went to White Sands and he walked me home before he headed home. And then it got busy, because I was baking his brownies, which by the way didn't turn out pretty ):

Bathed and all and left home for the airport at about 5.30pm? Happened to see Hafiz under my block so we walked and talked and he walked me to the bus stop, so sweet right, I know. My bestie from Sec school! (:

Anyway reached the airport and told Dan I'd wait for him to finish his procedures before meeting him but turned out that he spotted me (so coincidental, i know). And he came to join me first. Sat in the Viewing Mall, gave him all that I got for him. The Topman socks, the Soduku puzzle book and the 7-game magnetic board games set from Popular, as well as the letters I wrote for him, one for each day he's away, and the brownies I baked for him.

Talked for a while before he had to leave to check in the gates. I thought sending him off would be easy, but it wasn't. It took me so much courage to, to say goodbye, because I never want to be away from him. Fighting back my tears were tough, but I'm glad I sent him off without the sobbing and usual drama (that would been so expected). I believe it'll let him leave for his holiday more at ease. Thing is, we've been away from each other for (what seems like its been)so long and when we're finally back together, we're both going overseas, one after another. I miss you, Dan ):

Oh, Dan said that the brownies were edible and its not that bad considering the fact that I don't take F&B. How comforting right? I know, my very sweet boyfriend.
But its my first time baking anyway, so, it doesn't really matter. I'd like to believe that its the thought that counts (:

I love you, get there safe, eat well, rest well, have fun, I'll be here waiting. Love you very very much, Dan (:

And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always

9:21 PM

3:43 PM
Hi friends! (:

I'm helping my friend to advertise on her blogshop.
Havainas are going at $10 cheaper, pretty clothes, and very very unique and adorable ear studs.

Oh, and I just made cupcakes (my first attempt!), so that I can give it to Dan later when I send him off, and it looked pretty for a while before it sank back in, and I have no idea what went wrong. Nevermind, just make him eat it. Haha.

3:43 PM

Come home soon.
3:29 AM
My boyfriend's gonna be leaving soon. And my plan to bake him cupcakes/brownies foiled because I went prawning till late ):

Maybe I'll bake while he leaves my house tomorrow and heads home before he leaves the airport. Heh heh! I hope I have enough time then. I've gotta get ready the stuff I wanna get for him too.

Dan's coming over in the morning so we can spend the last few hours in the morning together before he leaves for Japan with his family. I hope it doesn't rain because we intend to go swimming. I'll miss my boyfriend when he's away ):

On a lighter note, Nig, Dad and I went prawning today and I caught 12 prawns and Nig caught 4 prawns. Dan told me to have fun and I did, and messaging him while prawning allowed me to catch this number, which happens to be, by far my personal best too (haha,i talk of it as if its shooting). I like the Uncle tending the place today, he taught me how to prawn once the last time I saw him, and today he taught me again, gave me a prawn that he caught (haha), and told me I was a fast-learner (yah,yah. sucker for praises.). Lol.

Reached home only at 3am and just bathed, but I'm gonna go sleep soon so I can meet my Daniel soon, in about 5 hours time (:

3:29 AM

Going back to the corner where I first met you.
Sunday, December 14, 2008
1:21 PM
The world's a better place now, with family, friends and Daniel.
Its almost impossible to not like waking up to a brand new day now.

Daniel's leaving tomorrow already and although I've only met him on Friday which also happens to be the day we got back together, and by the time he comes back, its only a matter of 4 days before I leave Singapore too, but its okay. I've got what I need and I've heard what I needed, and thats all that really matters.


I'm fighting all this power
Coming in my way
Let it send me straight to you
I'll be running night and day
I'll be with you soon
Just me and you
We'll be there soon
So soon

Running through the monsoon
Beyond the world
To the end of time
Where the rain won't hurt
Fighting the storm
Into the blue
And when I lose myself I think of you
Together we'll be running somewhere new
And nothing can hold me back from you
Through the monsoon

Through the monsoon
Just me and you

1:21 PM

what goes around comes around.
1:56 AM
My silly thing has just gone to bed.

I guess its karma. What you used to have to go through, I have to too now. But like I said, I'm prepared for a relationship this time, and I'm not backing out like what I did last time. I'm not so much of the coward you used to know. And I meant everything I said to you, every single thing I said was true.

Dan's leaving on Monday. I've gotta settle some stuff before he leaves. Should get them settled soon. By today later, after my shooting training. I'll prolly go to Suntec anyway.

I love you, very very much (:

1:56 AM

Friday, December 12, 2008
10:56 PM

Haha, ohhhhhhhhh. You want a blog-war? Bring it on, sisterrrrr (:

PS, I love you too, Paran. You are the bomb! :D

10:56 PM

10:43 PM
I just have to say this now, it cant hold it in any longer!
i just love the one and only JOANNE DENISE NOELLE PARANJOTHY!
i think she is the best and i hope to be like her one day although i know i cant especially in terms of hair. Lets just face it, her hair is just so long and luscious.
Ok la, i love you CHRISTINE TEO!You are an awesome child.

10:43 PM

They sprinkled starlight in your eyes of hazel.
9:46 PM
The wait was worth it, and putting aside my ego and pride for this once paid off. I don't regret taking on humility, and in fact I'm glad I have.

Dan and me are back together, and I choose to believe that our relationship will be stronger than what it used to be, because this time I won't be the one taking in the relationship, I won't be the only one on the receiving end. I gave in too in the past, but he was the one who kept the relationship going. This time, I'll play my part too, I'll do what I have to do to make this one work.

I'm not letting you go again. I won't make the same mistake twice.

Thank you all who've been there for me all these while, when I was at the lowest point in my life. I love you all. Very very much. Joanne, Jonathan, Justin, Mark, Xiuwen, Fel, Sab, Heidi, Sam, and all the 1T04 mates (whom I love very very much!), Cheston and John (my very good shooting besties, whom I quarrel with so much but secretly appreciate you all for being there for me all the time), Christian (bro, your advice worked, thank you for being there everytime I need support and encouragement, for providing me with the support I need unquestioningly), Shaun (who gives me second opinions, a more negative one though), and everyone else who's been there for me. Sebastian, etc.

Thank you all (: And yes Bro, I'll treasure what I've got (:

9:46 PM

Its the waiting that kills.
2:10 AM
Plucked up all courage that I had in me, and did what I've wanted to. It feels better. If its successful, then good for me. If not, at least I've tried. Definitely, hope its successful, but if not.. then I'll just have to wait till then to see. I guess. :/

2:10 AM

soft glimmers of my hope escaped from prison.
Thursday, December 11, 2008
12:37 AM
Went to Safra with John and Nig in the morning and waited for them till they finished training while I completed my Econs homework, its quite shabby, but at least its more-or-less completed for now, I'll have to run through it again sometime later, prolly after I finish my History.

Played pool. played hang-man while John, Cheston and Kevin played pool, ate, walked around Northpoint, came to Whitesands, played Daytona, ate, came home.

Then I went out to meet Jo at 8.30pm, hunged around, had donut factory, and then went to Millenia Walk, outside, near the bar Harry's to chat, and then rushed back to catch the last train. Talked about many stuff, it was a deep conversation. I'm glad I met up with that chubi.

Reached home at 12.30am.

I intended for something else, but I decided to express my thoughts instead, it troubles me to have to keep it in, so I'll just have it here.

What happens when all you've been placing your trust and hope in, when everything you believed in, where you seeked comfort and solace in, where you find security, shows signs of crumbling? I don't know, but what I did was to run. I was scared, afraid, and terrified. When DT got insecure too, I got scared. He used to tell me he'll support me, and he was my pillar of strength. I loved (and still do) wholeheartedly. Fact is, I wouldnt choose to run away again. I wont want to, because DT means too much to me, to be replaced. I should have, and would have stood by him. But now, it all seems redundant. All thats been said. I guess I'm more disappointed, than angry. I've told every one of my friends, and have spoke of how matured you are, but.. Blocking people on MSN, you really need a fool-proof plan. And blocking me and my brother, isn't exactly gonna help, not when your friends happen to be my friends too, and my good friends, for that matter. I guess I've just came to terms with the fact that you're avoiding me, and its really okay. It just seems so unfair, because everything happened and I have no idea why or what even. It just seems unfair, how everytime you do something wrong, and ask for a second (or even third) chance, I've never denied you the opportunity to salvage this, I never doubted that you can't solve this. But what happens when I make a wrong move, a wrong decision (which you know I've always been bad at, but have said to accept it)? I'm not given a single chance. At all. Its just unfair, but then again, it just seems to me, you've always been in control of this, getting back together or staying apart (like now), I've always left it to you. And it does hurt to know how there's been a shift in your priorities, because everything we talked about, has all been reduced to sweet-nothings and empty promises, or so it seems. I'd wish for a miracle to this, but this much is all I can do. Dumping you doesn't mean I didn't like you. I was scared, terrified, but there was nothing more I can do. I've tried what I can, and done what I can do to save this, but its not me now, its you..
But I already have the answer.
I love and miss you, but this much is all I can do.

This is yet another futile attempt, and I'm not even trying because I know the outcome.


Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
Thought it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that remain since you've been gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no....
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
Still not over you

Forget it, Christine.

12:37 AM

1.30am curfew set by jonathan- broken.
Wednesday, December 10, 2008
1:40 AM
HAHA! Sorry Jon, 1.30am dragged on and I'm still not in bed. And from the time we hung up from like 12.30am till now, I've not done my Econs so I've not fallen asleep yet.

Okay, I need to complete Econs. Need to complete before my holiday! ):

1:40 AM

Tuesday, December 09, 2008
10:31 PM
Woke up late, but met Jon and Jo and City Hall to get Justin's Haivanas, before heading to Elijah's house for the "surprise" party, which was not really a surprise anymore because Justin turned up earlier. Anyways, Aloy and Elijah cooked Carbonara. So cool, and it wasn't really bad. I thought they did a great job considering the fact that I cannot cook. At all.

Anyways, Elisha (Elijah's Brother) is so adorable, I tell you! He screams his head off when he loses Naruto to Gabriel on his Wii console, he throws things at you when he's angry, he hits you, he may even spit on you. Jo and Heidi were terrorized. Haha, I continued to laugh at him and tease him and sabo-ed Jo and Heidi, till they kept telling me to stop because he spat and hit them. In the end I fed him a grape. So adorable, I tell you.

We then went to Dhoby Ghaut to catch Bolt, met so many CJ people. People for T03 at Billy Bombers, met Andrew, met a GP teacher, and I ran into D and his friends without them knowing, and this stirred some emotions in me. Just, Mark, Heidi and Jon especially were worried about me. Thanks guys, I love you all! I'm okay now! (: Anyways, I've heard what I needed to hear, and I'll let the past rest. The truth may hurt, but it beats being left hanging in mid-air. I know you've hanged in mid-air once, and this is probably pay-back, and though what you tell me never really did make sense to me, but it doesn't matter. I accept the fact that it is already over.

I'm moving on, friends! Don't worry! :D

Special thanks to Sebastian too, for constantly messaging me even while in army (aww), to make sure I'm alright.

Oh, and I feel this sense of achievement for managing to make Elijah try out Yami Yoghurt because he hates it. HAHA, I told you it tastes better with cashew nuts! (:

HAPPY 17th JUSTIN! :D (the only guy in the picture)

Hey, barbie girl (LOL, inside joke)! We've really came a long way, from total strangers, to classmates, to PW mates, to sitting partners, to you being someone who terrorized me while sitting beside me, to having an awkward time trying to do PW, to being good friends, to being good PW mates, to actually having ALOT of fun while doing PW (i know, incredible huh). Quite poor thing actually, Justin. Being given so many nicknames by the class, Robot, Mr. Potato Man (from Toy Story), etc etc. Haha, we've come a long way, dude. And I know there are better times to come ahead of us. I'm really glad you're in my PW group, and to have you as a classmate, thank you for all that you've done for the class (esp for CIP), winning the best class award for CIP hours, planning the Batam trip (which was a success), helping out in class activities, etc. I really appreciate your presence. You're a great friend, Just, and I'm really happy I got to know you. But then again, your dopies are still ugly. HAHA, love you, hate your dopies, Just.


And to Jon:

Hey Eeeeediot, I'll never forget that you're always here for me, from the beginning of the school term till now, especially int he recent months. Spend almost every single day with you and Jo, and I really love you guys. You were my good friend when we entered the class, and you still are, in fact, one of my very bestest friend now. I'm glad you've been with me all these while, and though I always disturb you and call you names (because you call me names first!), but the number of teaspoons I give you cannot measure up to how much you mean to me. Haha, okay, I know its gross, the teaspoon thingy. But I can't help it if you keep smacking your hand on my face just when I'm about to talk (yes, its 97% coincidence, Jon!). Anyway, you're leaving for Japan tomorrow, and have fun, you. Take care of yourself! I'll see you when you're back on the 23rd. You've been a great friend. Love you Jon (:

PS, I know I said today's opposite day, but not in this post, I mean everything I said (: OH AND I CAN'T BELIEVE YOU LAUGH AT ME FOR CRYING IN BOLT! HAHA! <33

I miss Christian, talking to him and all. He's always able to cheer me up so easily.

10:31 PM

My life is a dancefloor.
12:55 AM
Got angry today because I was supposed to meet John, Cheston, Akshay, Gerald and Wanting, but I cancelled it to go out with Mom and Dad and Nig, but Nig didn't want to go out in the end so Mom and Dad suggested to stay home. So annoying right? Anyway, went out with Sebastian instead. Had giant Earthquake at Swensens, and showing each other things the other can't do. Its damn cool. He can lick his elbow too!

Anyway, then I got demented because I wanted to tie the cherry knot, and he got into the photography mood by taking many unglam shots of me trying to tie the knot. Here's a picture of me looking intent while trying, and the rest are in his phone.

Then headed to town at about 7pm, and he left, while I met up with Jo and Jon. Heh, hanged around till late. Had supper and all, and Jon embarrassed me in front of this guy! ): And the worse part is he's not that bad looking. Anyway, to cut it short, Jon did the "about-to-push-you-down-the-stairs" push, and I shrieked makig the guy look at me (not that he wasn't already. HAHA), and I turned around to hit Jon only to hit my head against the protruding box at the side. And the guy laughed. Oh man ):

We then roamed around making noise and all, it was funny. I had fun. Took the last train home, and dozed off many times. Walked through the park at 12.30am.

12:55 AM

the cheese to my macaroni
Monday, December 08, 2008
2:12 PM

2:12 PM

10:56 AM
Friday night, met up with the lovely people at 12am at Suntec, and we went to Marina Square for supper. Walked around the esplanade area at 2am+, making noise, having fun, playing stupid games with Fel which she played me out on. Then Jon left earlier.

We reported late for the Standard Chartered Marathon volunteer thingy, so we were made to sit at the tent for 2 hours before we were tended to. Played heartattack etc etc, talked. I was up and awake and energetic. Fel said I'm nocturnal, and I don't deny it, I'm hyper at night, and I know it. Wee says I'm really really high, and Pat said he didn't need to get me any Vodka because I was already drunk. Oh yah, Pat agreed to get Vodka, but we didn't in the end.

Standard Chartered Marathon thingy was really slack, because we were assigned to easy but really boring jobs, Jo and I took many long walks anyway, and after lunch at 11am, all of us, Fel, Sam, Sab, Jo, Pat, Aloy, Wee, Justin, Wanyi and Hansel were sitting outside the tent sleeping on the tables in the open. Lol. We rested all the way till 1.30pm, then we decided to take our leave. After signing out and all, we actually received 20 bucks which came as a surprise for us because we were only here for CIP hours, but anyways someone commented on how we were "paid to sleep".

After that we went for movie at Marina Square, caught Quarantine. Fel and I were screaming out hearts out. It was truly thrilling and gory at the same time, and at one point in time I saw Fel edged towards Sab. So I retardedly ducked for covers too. I said retardedly because after hat I was permanently glued to Wee's shoulders till the movie ended.

After the movie, Jo and I continued to walk around while the rest of them wanted to head home to sleep. Jo and I bought our Yami Yoghurts! :D And went shopping. Had only wanted to look around but she managed to convince me in the end to buy a dress, which I really liked too, so it wasn't a not-worth-it buy. And I managed to take my revenge on her by convincing her to buy a wallet from Paul Frank which really suited her, and it was nice. Lol. We then realised how we never once went home with nothing from all our trips out together. But it was pretty cool because we always get good buys in the sense that we actually wear them and not buying anything on impulse. Heh!

Reached home at about 7.30pm? THen went for dinner with Mom and Dad at Downtown before heading back at like 9.00pm+.

Prawning picture! (:

10:56 AM

Saturday, December 06, 2008
9:42 PM
Met Elijah at 12pm for lunch at Dhoby Ghaut, after almost 5 minutes of deciding, and almost 5 minutes of walking around, we finally settled at Cafe Cartel for lunch. Heh. Its amazing cause we've never talked in school before, never even said hi, but we actually just went out today for lunch like that today. And normally I'd feel weird, but it was okay today. Elijah's really really reaaaallly easy to get along with (:

Anyways, after Cafe Cartel and joking/talking about almost everything, we headed to Buona Vista where we met Ivan who had church practice for carolling. Haha. Went to NUH for the Law and Dentistry workshop, it was pretty good. Like to prepare you for the interview. In fact, there was also a speaker who's a student from the Medical faculty too. So it was more like, Law, Dentistry and Medical workshop. It was quite good in all. The medical guy was funny but chauvinistic. Elijah'd know what I mean, I got so pissed off at times of his talk in the funny way.

Anyways, spending time with Elijah and Ivan was good. I enjoyed myself (:

Saw Matthew-lessy-Han and Marcus at church :D Talked to them for a while after mass before going. MATTHEW LESSY HAVE A GOOD FLIGGGHHHHT! :D

Gotta leave the house soon, its already 10.11pm, to meet some of the mates for movvieeeee! (:

Have some people to apologise to:
1. Sebastian for falling asleep on the computer last night while MSNing you
2. Shaun for not being able to go out with you YET, I'll go out with you soon. Really!
3. Jeremy Chow for having to postpone our prawning trip that time and have not set another date.

I'm really sorry guys! Especially Shaun and Jeremy.C, cause they both came to tell me today when I came online/they came online that I've yet to go out with them!

9:42 PM

depart to serve
1:10 AM
ACT1V8 Youth Conference has ended. It has been a good 2 days and the healing session was fantastic,. I felt so much better. Cried for a long time, cried openly, cried all my sadness away. Heartbreaks don't hurt as much now because the Holy Spirit's with me.


1:10 AM

Friday, December 05, 2008
9:54 AM
Youth Conference at Holy Spirit Church was amazing, I'm glad Pat called us along!

The 12 hours spent there was totally worth it, besides getting to spend time with our friends, and meeting new people, it was a spirituallly enriching event. It really helped me grow in my faith.

Good music was played, it took us awhile to open up initially, most of us, including me,we weren't comfortable with all the lifting your hands to praise God, we were just singing along, but as the day went by, everyone sang at the top of their voices, everyone lifted their hands to worship Him, and by the end of the day, everyone in the Attic, aka the Upper Room, were all jumping to their music the band played. The band was undeniably good. Pat played the piano, really proud of him! And the saxophonist was, sooo cute. I was standing on clouds I tell you, he swept me off my feet. And he's so charming playing the saxophone!

Anyways, the sharing sessions there were meaningful and interesting, like the preachers were not too long winded, and they were really inspirational.

I'm going back to God. Because God is Love. And love given by others, are never as good as His love.

You're my Prince of Peace and I will live my life for You.

9:54 AM

I think I'll get a lover and fly 'em out to spain.
Wednesday, December 03, 2008
11:59 PM
Pre-Monthly Shoot but it was bad ):
Demoralized greatly, but I'ma alter my mental state! I'll be mentally stronger :D

Stayed with the guys today all the way. Played LAN, and all. Then Cheston, John, Nig and I went for a movie at Yishun's cinema. Caught 'Four Christmases'. They're catching 'Bolt' tomorrow, but I can't because I'll be away for Pat's church stuff (:

Cheston and John, and actually Nigel even, were disturbing me because I had to go get what-girls-all-need-at-the-time-of-the-month. And I never even told them what I was gonna get, they just got suspicious when Nig started to ask me what I needed to buy on pretend, and I refused to answer. John very casually just went, "Aiya, you need to buy pad is it?". And Cheston best, he shouted "to buy the softest one.". :x

Anyway, after the movie it was already about 7.40pm? Headed back to the East, where Cheston left to meet his Mom. John, Nig and I then proceeded on to Central to meet Mommy and Daddy to bring Nigel to the doctor cause he's sick. Turned out to be a stomach flu. That poor boy.

Had dinner together at Central before John left for home and we walked home as well. I'm dead beat.

11:59 PM

Everythings easier now
4:15 AM
I don't like what I see, and thats probably a good thing, at least for me. HEH!

Sex bands, are just oh-so-not-you. You're no longer the one I used to know, not the one I fell head over heels for. You're just making it so, SO much easier for me to get over you. (:

Goodbye (to the old D I knew) for good! :D

I can't sleep! o.O Hahaha, I'll be leading a new life as of this very instant. It feels pretty good. I'm getting good vibes! Heh.

My dear friends are in Mawai now sleeping in the wild, those poor people. Was it Yoke who said she heard a tiger? Don't worry! You all have our Chocolate Buffet at Fullerton Hotel to look forward to! We'll wait for you to come back! Heheh, I miss all of them! And I wonder how Aloy's doing, my dearest sistaa, it must be hard on him. And my fellow PW mate, Yoke, I hope she finds a water heater and a proper tap to bathe in, and I'd like to believe she'll find a way or another to enjoy herself. Mark can go judo some tigers if they appear and protect Yoke and the rest so we can still have our chocolate buffet. HAHA. And SAB! I miss talking to Sab, that woman's hilarious. I hope that pruple rat Ratatta's doing fine there. HAHA.

I miss 1T04, but we'll get together soon! Heh! (:

I hope they're safe and sound! Love you guys, brave brave people. We're all proud of you for completing Mawai!

4:15 AM