The shadows of ringdoves chanting but chasing nothing.

I'll scale the highest mountains to make it to You.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

11:50 PM

Jon and I dared Jo to talk to the ''DJ" of the roadshow held in Whitesands. And she made a dedication for the song "Lips of an angel" and the lady actually imitated the way she spoke, in the sing song voice. HAHA!

Met Zeng Ting and Jia Wen at Whitesands too. Then we headed home after buying our coney dogs! Heh! (:

Went to downtown for a walk, wanted to go for a swim but we decided otherwise later. Met Kunsheng on the way home with Jo and Jon. After dinner, we watched SHUTTER. I was spooked! But I always am when I watch horror movies anyway -.-"

They just left at about 11.30pm. Great great friends, I say (:

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QUIZZZ!

Q: Love someone?
- Yeapp!

Q: Who is that someone?
- Family and friends (:

Q: Kissed someone on your top friends?
- Nigggggg! (:

Q: Been arrested?
- No

Q: Been searched?
- No

Q: Been suspended from school?
- Yep, for a very lame reason -.-"

Q: Sat on a roof top?
- No

Q: Broken a bone?
- No

Q: Have shaved your head?
- No!!!

Q: Played a prank on someone?
- HAHAHAm yeap!

Q: Shot a gun?
- I do that for my CCA points! (:

Q: Donated Blood?
- No

_____________________________
LAST PERSON YOU

1 You hung out with?
- Jon and Jo!

2 Last person that you texted?
- Sebastian

3 You were in a car with?
- Daddy and Mommy

4 Went to the movies with
- Daniel Lau

5 Went to the mall with?
- Mommy and Daddy

6 Person you talked on the phone with?
- HAHA my maid. Called her from my room, HAHAH!

7 Person that called you?
- Mommyyy

8 You messaged on myspace?
- But I dont use myspace!

9 You talked to?
- Shyam! On MSN! (THERE, YOU GET TO BE ON MY BLOG, SHYAM!)

10 You miss?
- My friends.

11 You hugged?
- Is it Mom, or Dad? Or Jo or Jon? IDK! o.O

_______________________________________
WOULD YOU??

1 Eat or drink?
- Drink

2 Be serious or be funny?
- Both depending on what is needed at an occassion

3 Drink whole milk or skimmed milk?
- Whichever that does not contain melamine/kidney stones.

4 Die in a fire or die getting shot?
- I'll rather die in the hands of something I love so much. SHOOTTINGGG!!

5 Go to the bar or to the beach
- Beach I guess. Bar prolly a while later (:

__________________________________ __
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY

1 Sun or moon?
- None.

2 Winter or fall?
- Fall

3 Left or right?
- Right

4 Black and white or colored?
- Red.

5 Where do you live?
- Somewhere you'll never gain entry to.

6 Do you wanna get married?
- Wanted.

7 What is on your mind?
- If prawning with Nig is really on.

8 Do you twirl your spaghetti or cut it?
- Twirl
______________________________
IN THE LAST WEEK HAVE YOU

1 Kissed someone?
- Mommy and Daddy for sure.

2 Been hugged by someone?
- Yeeahhh

3 Been poked by someone?
- HAHA YES

Christine
11:50 PM

Love lost.

2:30 PM

You hesitate and hold back.
You will live with this regret.
And I-

I had my heart in my hands,
I was so high in the clouds,
But you talked me out of my little own world.

Everything seemed perfect,
Everything seemed safe.
Reassured, I handed my thoughts to you.
Gave you my hand with my heart.
Gave you all of me,
Only to see you watch me fall.
Now I-

I will not be staying here.
I will not be by your side.

Its been way too long, but
When dusk sets in, your love folds.
Like the sun, love comes and goes.

Christine
2:30 PM

Good friends to pull me through.

1:12 PM

It surprises me sometimes.

How Sebastian knows what I'm thinking and feeling.

[13:10:19]
~(bear)²~ Train-Compete-Deliver | Discipline, Concentration, Patience says: i understand.. past histories are hard to forget
[13:10:31]
~(bear)²~ Train-Compete-Deliver | Discipline, Concentration, Patience says: we have a tendency to think that things might happen in the same way
[13:11:09]
~(bear)²~ Train-Compete-Deliver | Discipline, Concentration, Patience says: and when we manage to convince ourselves that its not, history jus repeats itsefl and proves us wrong

And how good friends we've became over such a short period of time just by talking on MSN. Here's what Shyam wrote for me last night.

Ill always be here
No matter what you say
Dont let go
Its going to be okay

Dont hold back
Im here for you
Take my hand
Ill pull you through

I need you
Just like you need me
You cant let go
I couldnt set you free

If you start to slip
I slip too
Because it kills me
To know the pain you go through

I have full faith in you
I know you can hold on
Take some of my strength
Before yours is gone

Ill dry your tears
Hold you for awhile
I cant promise to make you laugh
But I can try to help you smile

Thanks Shyam, I really really appreciate it! (:

Christine
1:12 PM

Cheston and John spies with their little eyes on my beautiful life.

2:22 AM

HI COW AND BIMBO! I KNOW YOU TWO WILL READ THIS EVENTUALLY. THANK YOU FOR BEING REALLY REALLY GOOD FRIENDS, AND FOR STANDING BY ME ALL THIS WHILE! AND DONT WORRY, I WON'T BE WEARING MY HEART ON MY SLEEVE ANYMORE LIKE WHAT I'VE BEEN DOING FOR THE PAST 6 MONTHS. YES YES, I'MA GOOD GIRL WHO HEEDS YOUR ADVICES! (:

And I should be the one giving advices. Lol, but they're matured young people who've taught me many things and widened my insights, and I really appreciate them for everything. Most importantly, I love spending time with them! :D

Okay, the cow's so gonna drown me with milk, while the bimbo's gonna kill me with his stupidity (he's actually smart, btw), and they'll murder me by their ultimate bitchiest-bitch fit when they see that I called their eyes little. HAHA.

I've got really really good friends.
(:

Shutter movie and swimming tomorrow with Jo and Jon! (:
Yes woman! You'll get your coney doggggg! :D

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Sleeping with Mom tonight because its where I feel the safest.

Christine
2:22 AM

Saturday, November 29, 2008

11:51 PM

Shopped at Club Marc, bought some stuff. Retail therapy is the bomb, baby.

Shaun asked me today if I've told anyone "I'll be there for you."
And he asked if I was really there for them when they needed me.

And it made me reflect.
I've been told this many times too, and my friends normally hold up to it, and I'm really thankful that they've always been this supportive and encouraging.
But what about the people whom I've seen as one of my priorities, as someone special, as someone who really means the world to me?
They're not here when I need them. They're not even here at all. You're not here. Not now.

But its okay, because I've got friends and family.
(:

.

After what happened yesterday, I decided to use today as a gauge, to see if it was back to friends afterall. And maybe I am right, and maybe this is the end.

And at the end of all thats been said, all you told me, its still back to you and your friends. And your friends will eventually, and prolly have already triumphed over me.

But its okay.
(:

Christine
11:51 PM

Retail therapy

4:00 PM

Don't worry, friends!

I went shopping today with Mommy and Daddy. Went to Taka but didn't find anything I really really liked, so Mommy got her eyeshadow from Bobbi Brown, and we made a dash into Coach for a "quick look" but Mommy surprised me by offering to buy me a pair of sneakers. I've always wanted Coach sneakers! Gahhhhh! (:

Anyways, I was about to buy the other classic pair of sneakers, but we decided to buy it via my uncle's friend who's going to America soon, and there are many more orders which we have already submitted beforehand. Heh heh! Bags bags bags! And now shoes too! I'ma get sneakers and pumps :x OHHHH, including the classic bangle I've secretly fell in love with last December when I was in Los Angeles's Coach store!

Christine
4:00 PM

10:18 AM

I should have signed up for the Mawai Eco camp next week. Then I'd have more time to be away, I'd have more things on my mind. I should have foresaw the split up. I should have just left.

I should have never reconsidered the eco camp to spend more time with you. I should never have. I should never have gotten my hopes high. Then I wouldnt have them crashing all down on me again. I should never have thought, never have hoped..

Christine
10:18 AM

Friday, November 28, 2008

10:11 PM

Dinner at Apollo Banana Leaf in Little India. Superrrrr good, but I'm extremely bloated and full ):

OH, and I never knew Mustafa Center was in Little India. I always thought its at Holland. V, oh, or maybe there is a branch there. Is there?

I wanna shop there one of these days!

.

If I were a boy
Even just for a day
I’d roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted and go
Drink beer with the guys
And chase after girls
I’d kick it with who I wanted
And I’d never get confronted for it
Because they’d stick up for me

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted
Cause he’s taken you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone its broken
So they think
that I was sleeping alone
I’d put myself first
And make the rules as I go
Cause I know that she’d be faithful
Waiting for me to come home (to come home)

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I’d be a better man
I’d listen to her
Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted (wanted)
Cause he’s taken you for granted (granted)
And everything you had got destroyed

It’s a little too late for you to come back
Say its just a mistake
Think I forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don’t understand (yea you don’t understand)
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you’ll wish you were a better man
You don’t listen to her
You don’t care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
Cause you've taken her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed
But you're just a boy…

Christine
10:11 PM

My heart is like an open highway.

5:29 PM

Wanted to go swimming but it started raining.

.

Its over and done
But the heartache lives on inside
And who's the one you're clinging to
Instead of me tonight?

Better stand tall when they're calling you out
Don't bend, don't break, baby, don't back down

Christine
5:29 PM

You took a part of me together with you.

4:09 PM

Everywhere I go, I see you.

I see you alighting with me at my stop.
I see your hand stretched out at me before we walk home.
I see you cracking stupid jokes and making funny faces at me.
I see you chasing behind me.
I see you laugh at me when I startle.
I see you holding the lift doors for me.
I see you grinning at me.
I see you raising your eyebrows at me.
I see you walk me home.
I see you walking into my house waving to my parents.
I see you sitting beside the sofa stroking Red.
I see you falling asleep next to the sofa.
I see you trying to make me smile when I'm angry.
I see you next to Nigel watching him play dota.
I see you running for the toilet upstairs.
I see you crouching behind the bend at the stairs and scaring me when I walk by.
I see you having dinner with my family at the dining table.
I see you in the kitchen getting me a glass of water.
I see you sitting next to me as I blog my posts,
I see you sitting at the edge of my bed rummaging through my accessories.
I see you trying on my pair of jeans.
I see you trying to help me choose what to wear.
I see you helping me fold my clothes as I pack my bags for the chalet.
I see you trying to picture me in my new dress and telling me I'll look nice.
I see you showing me your many-eyed socks.
I see you wearing your shoes before you leave.
I see you outside my gate, telling me you'll be back again.
I see you reassuring me everytime I cry because you have to leave.
I see you holding me in your arms when I sob uncontrollably.
I see you holding out your arms to me everytime I'm angry with you.
I see you carrying my shopping bags when I buy something.
I see you do the walk I loved so much.
I see you rummaging through your hair in the mirror trying to make it look different but fail all the time.
I see you cam-whoring on my Macbook.
I see you trying to lift me up whenever I'm not aware.
I see you make me do the spin in the middle of a crowded mall.
I see you annoying me with your cat sounds.
I see you sad and helpless whenever I cry.
I see you paving the way for me in a crowded place.
I see you leaning on my shoulder on the train.
I see you imitating the way I speak and my laughter.
I see you telling me how much you want to be with me.
I see you playing with my hair.
I see you occassionally sniffing my hair when I'm not looking.
I see you telling me its late and its time to go.
I see you making me fall in love with you more each day.

But I also see you leaving me today.

Crying my heart out while typing this. It makes me think back and recollect. Everywhere I go, I see you. There are too many memories to be erased.

You screwed this up, and this time I try to be the one to fix this. Unlike all the other times, you're the one trying to fix this. And I've been foolish enough to give you this many chances too, despite telling you I'm not going to be able to suffer another heartache. This time you screw up, I offer to fix it, on condition, but you say you're not ready. I don't blame you. But it just seems to me, you're not ready to make sacrifices for this. I'm not claiming credit here, but this will be the only time I'm trying.

I didnt mind being dragged lower, I didnt mind getting pulled down with you, neither did i mind being destroyed with you, if its what is to come. I was prepared to go through it, all. All, with you. But..

You've made our choice between a relationship and a friendship, or at least it seems to me. You say you don't want to hurt me anymore, you say you'll only hurt me more and more, but I say, ultimately it just boils down to you treasuring your friends more.

So you say you don't know how long it'll take till you feel better, I'm saying it doesn't matter anymore. Because I'm not waiting.
You left with a part of me, a big part of me. I don't intend to take it back. Because it doesn't matter anymore.

Nothing really matters anymore. Everything here, everything above, the tears thats been shed, all thats been said, everything I held on to, everything I believed, whatever said now doesn't matter anymore. I just know I'll be okay. I'm stronger than this. I know I am.

Another shadow of my past.

Christine
4:09 PM

Someday I'll find the love I'm looking for, then my sweet, sweet song won't sound so sad no more.

11:03 AM

My sweet song
It's been a long time
What'd you come around here for
Cause that old love is gone
And I've since carried on
Thought I was rid of you for sure
Oh my sweet song, you don't sound so
sweet no more

Please don't sing to me
Cause it hurts me to hear the melody that was
Good to me before
Oh my sweet song, you don't sound so
sweet no more

Oh you said love was forever and you told me
love would never
Break my heart, and I believed you as I fell
That's all over, let it go,
You're just a song I used to know
And your fantasy, it don't work for me
Go and pick on someone else

Christine
11:03 AM

Tried, done what I could, convinced.

11:00 AM

Waiting for your,
Call I'm sick,
Call I'm angry,
Call I'm desperate for your voice
Listening to the song we used to sing
In the car, do you remember
Butterfly, Early Summer
It's playing on repeat, Just like when we would meet
Like when we would meet

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They'll all be in my memory.

Christine
11:00 AM

Past the point of no return, no backward glances.

4:31 AM

It's 2 o'clock in the morning
And I'm waking up reaching out
To cover you and then it all
Comes back I see your keys
On the dresser
And they're exactly
Where you left them
On the day
That you walked
Out of my life

Who's gonna love you now?
Who's gonna be the one
To catch you falling
When your world
Comes crashing down like I do?
Who's gonna hold you down?
Who's gonna see your heart
Beyond Your Faults
When you can't admit your wrong?

When trouble comes to find you
Will she stay and walk with you?
Tolerate all your excuses
And keep on loving you?
Does she swing with your moods?
Does she know
How you like your food?
Does she laugh
At your stupid jokes
Especially the one
That I hate the most

Who's gonna pick up your mess?
(That you always seem
To leave behind you)
And make sense
Of your loose ends
(Cos ain't nobody gon do
What I do for you)

.

Your friends will.

Christine
4:31 AM

The greatest let-down.

3:02 AM

Of all people, you.

Painted beautiful pictures, said the sweetest things, made things sound promising, said you knew what you were getting into, said you were prepare, said you were sure, and made me convinced.

Christine
3:02 AM

I love you but don't need you.

1:15 AM

If I were a boy, I'd never:
1. act like you
2. talk like you
3. type like you
3. blog like you
4. flirt like you
5. behave like you
6. bitch like you
7. be you.

Today was a good day overall, when has my days not been good so far anyway? Lol.

Met Daniel Lau at Pasir Ris and we headed to Yishun together. Watched City Of Ember together. It was good, suprisingly. We thought it was the typical lame kinda show initially. But we, or at least I quite liked it anyway.

Tsk, Daniel, if you're reading this, you'll be the old man in the movie if you continue with your sleeping habits! HAHA!

Then we went for lunch before heading to Safra to train. Played pool with Dexter, Nig and Nitish. Left after a few games, and Nig, Nitish and myself left to meet my mates at Khatib. Lol.

Went prawning again! Quite a few of us went today, and we all left quite late, except for Nitish who left early at like 9.30pm? Anyways, we left at 11.30pm, with me catching 1 prawn and Nig catching 2, and Sam catching the most today with a total of like 4 or 5. Sab and Jon caught like 2 if I'm not wrong. HAHA, JO & JUSTIN CAUGHT ONE ONLY TOO. Cant remember how many Hazel and the rest caught though.

Reached home at like 12.15am with Nig. And we're going for breakfast tomorrow with Mommy and Daddy! (:

Oh, and thanks Daniel for paying for the tickets today, the next one's on me! Can't fight with me for it then! (:

Christine
1:15 AM

Put the ring on for me and I'll never take it off again.

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

11:48 PM

Caught Jo checking out a guy who turned out to be the same guy she caught me checking out.
LOL, Jo.

Body of Lies with the mates today. Then Jo, and I went for Subway and back to nebo to play games with the rest of them. Played Taboo, played Jengar, till we were told to keep our volume down.

Then Jo and I went shopping in town. Jon joined us after his basketball game. Bought stuff at Dorothy Perkins and Jo and I were complaining about how we hate each other because we always end up wanting to buy so many things. Actually I love you, woman!

Walked around with Jon and Jo when all the shops are closed.

Got home at 11.30pm.

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I'm still hurting from a love i lost,
I'm feeling your frustration,
Then maybe all the pain will stop,
Just don't be close inside your arms tonight,
dont be to hard on my emotions

Cause i, need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while im still healing,
Just try and have a little patience,

I really wanna start over again,
I know u wanna be my salvation,
The one that i can always depend,

I'll try to be strong, believe me,
I'm trying to move on,
It's complicated but understand me,

Cause I need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while im still healing,
Just try and have a little patience,

Yeah, have a little patience, Yeah

Cause this scar runs so deep,
Its been hard,
But i have to believe me,

Have a little patience,
Have a little patience,

Cause i, i just need time,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while im still healing,
just try, and have a little patience,

Have a little patience,
My heart is numb has no feeling,
So while i'm still healing
just try and have a little... Patience

Patience, something you don't have.

Christine
11:48 PM

"I always thought Christine was the ku-niang kind, but I'm impressed seeing her get down and dirty."

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

7:54 PM

Batam was, amazing.

Dance/fooling around with the guys in T04 while teaching the kids dance and nursery rhymes. Laughing at Xiuwen for calling the operator instead of calling Jon's room to disturb him without even noticing till the front desk people spoke, locking Jo out of the room and making her call herself a mop before letting her in, sharing a piece of cake with 19 people, going shopping with the girls, falling asleep on Wee's shoulder on the ferry ride to Batam, playing along with Mark to "our" rumours, laughing at everyone else, talking to one another, laughing at Ms Ng with Jo and Jon, going crazy at night, bunking in Fel and Sab's room, farming with T04, piggybacking children running around, they'll all be in my memory.

Work was hard, farming was tough. Sun burns and abrasions from piggybacking the many kids, getting strangled by them, being teased and at times even touched by the older (but not too old) boys who were near my age, the hot sun, the headaches, the times where I felt faint, were all worth it, when the children smiles.

I love the children there, Roi and Aci in Asakina. Puteri, Ariz, Dika, etc in Al Jaafar. I'll never forget them. I never will.

Reflections time in Asakina was touching, especially when Roi, the boy who sat with me throughout the 3 days, said he wished we'd come back again tomorrow (which was today), and we can't cause it was already our last day there and we were leaving. I'll miss Roi.

Many guys also commented on how I seem to be so lady-like, but actually don't mind (that much) doing manual labour. And Christian said, knowing me it must have been tough on me, which is quite true cause I never move a finger, but in my opinion, it was all worth it.

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Thought I couldn't live without you
It's gonna hurt when it heals too
It'll all get better in time
Even though I really love you
I'm gonna smile cause I deserve to
It'll all get better in time

Since there's no more you and me
It's time I let you go
So I can be free
And live my life how it should be
No matter how hard it is I'll be fine without you
Yes I will

Christine
7:54 PM

Saturday, November 22, 2008

2:44 AM

Feeling better with the company of friends.

First Jonathan. Now..

[02:42:05]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: then mrs rajan will be jigglypuff AHAHAHAHA
[02:42:05]
sabrina! says: GASP
[02:42:09]
sabrina! says: HAHHAHAHAHAHA
[02:42:10]
sabrina! says: BEST
[02:42:14]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: so apt
[02:42:20]
sabrina! says: VERY APT
[02:42:25]
sabrina! says: she sing we all collaspe and sleep
[02:42:26]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: LOL
[02:42:28]
sabrina! says: no need sing lah
[02:42:30]
sabrina! says: say hello
[02:42:32]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: hahahh later she draw on your face
[02:42:35]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: hahahah her hello..
[02:42:40]
sabrina! says: can you imagine?!?!?
[02:42:42]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: omg. monotone la she. pls
[02:42:43]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: HAHAHA,
[02:42:52]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: she going around the lecture hall to draw on our faces?
[02:42:52]
sabrina! says: we wake up, got brave new world whole town and city drawn on the face
[02:42:54]
sabrina! says: the map
[02:42:55]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: i totally can.
[02:42:57]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: HAHAHHAHAHAHAHHAHA
[02:42:58]
sabrina! says: of savage reservation
[02:42:59]
sabrina! says: HAHAHAHAH

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[02:43:42]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: ehhhh, mr holden also can be jigglypuff
[02:43:53]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: hahahah.
[02:44:00]
sabrina! says: yea man! he's GPpuff
[02:44:05]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: HAHAHAHAHHAHA
[02:44:06]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: wth
[02:44:06]
sabrina! says: new brand of curry puff
[02:44:13]
sabrina! says: mr rajoo's faveeeee
[02:44:16]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: mr rajoo like
[02:44:18]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: hahhahaa

Christine
2:44 AM

2:23 AM

Strong ladies crumble at night, Sebastian.

I'm only able to fall, to crumble collapse at night. Tonight. The tear tap seems to be in full blast and I can't seem to stop it. I've lost the switch somewhere. It'll take me a while to find it.

I love you, but that's not the point.

Christine
2:23 AM

1:19 AM

[01:16:20]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: HEY CHRISTINE YOU SHOOTER,
[01:16:29]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: SUCH A LOSER, (HAHAHAH)
[01:16:40]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: CRAZY RED LOVER,
[01:16:46]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: HAHAHAHA
[01:17:08]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: go on
[01:17:11]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: I LL GIVE YOU SOME WORDS TO CONSIDER
[01:17:22]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: (THAT WAS PART OF THE POEM ANYWAY)
[01:17:49]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: I KNOW LIFE'S GETTING HARDER,
[01:18:01]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: AND THE PROBLEMS MAY DOUBLE,
[01:18:08]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: HAHHA NOT BAD AH
[01:18:14]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: rhyming couplets
[01:18:14]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: BUT DON'T YOU TROUBLE,
[01:18:23]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: CAUSE YOU LL NEVER CRUMBLE,
[01:19:08]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: YOU VE GOT JON YOUR SUPPORTER,
[01:19:27]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: HAHAHAHAHAH GO ON GO ON
[01:19:32]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: EHH WAIT LA
[01:19:38]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: NT THAT EASY OK!
[01:19:56]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: LOL
[01:19:59]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: I KNOW I KNOW
[01:20:02]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: END IT
[01:20:12]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: FRIENDS FOREVER!
[01:20:23]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: or LOVE FOREVER!
[01:20:29]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: awwwww, so sweet right.
[01:20:30]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: HHHHAAHA FRIEND BETTER
[01:20:41]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: YUP AND LAST LINE AFTER THAT SHD BE
[01:20:42]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: hahaha
[01:20:46]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: WITH JON THE FREAKING LOSER
[01:20:51]
jon NADAL(1) FEDERER(2) says: WHAAAAAAT
[01:20:53]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: HAHAH

Precisely because of friends like these..

Christine
1:19 AM

1:00 AM

Gastritis.

But I'd limp to Batam if I had to. I'd crawl there with my gastritis and die there if I must.
I need to get my mind off you.

Christine
1:00 AM

12:12 AM

00:10:32]
~(bear)²~ Train-Compete-Deliver | Discipline, Concentration, Patience says: its okay.. then don smile
[00:10:41]
~(bear)²~ Train-Compete-Deliver | Discipline, Concentration, Patience says: sometimes its okay to cry
[00:11:00]
~(bear)²~ Train-Compete-Deliver | Discipline, Concentration, Patience says: or feel sad, or sulk or whine about things
[00:11:20]
~(bear)²~ Train-Compete-Deliver | Discipline, Concentration, Patience says: but on one condition
[00:11:50]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: which is?
[00:12:33]
~(bear)²~ Train-Compete-Deliver | Discipline, Concentration, Patience says: you mus have someone there for you... wipe your tears when you cry, listen to you when you whine, entertain you when you sulk, drink with you when you're sad

Something i have to learn to do. To wear my emotions on my faces. But for now, I won't. I'll smile when I feel compelled to, I'll smile when I wanna frown.

Wore my heart on my sleeve and it never did work out quite right.

Christine
12:12 AM

Friday, November 21, 2008

11:57 PM

I'll miss Christian when I'm away. You won't be alone cause I'll be missing you too. And bro, we're in the same situation and we're both messes. But we'll get through this with each other. I promise. I'll always be here for you.

Christine
11:57 PM

11:48 PM

It'll be quite funny if I die of exhaustion and fatigue in Batam. HAAHAHA. Omg I sound so damn morbid.

Anyways I'll be bringing my phone along. WEEEEEEEEEE (:

Christine
11:48 PM

10:49 PM

Training and PT (basketball) in the morning with the shoooooters (:

Lol. Got fetched home, did what I had to do to move on. Then John and Bradley came back home with Nigel and we played games for the longest amount of time. Then they left and I left for TM to do the last minute shopping of stuff for the OCIP trip tmr.

Had no appetite at all so I skipped breakfast and lunch but was made to eat dinner by dad because he insisted that I did. ):
Nevermind! Batam trip, he wont be able to supervise! :D

I've not started packing! AT ALL. Packed up the stuff which I wanted to, but not what I needed to >.<

Christine
10:49 PM

I'm shivering eating ice.

5:40 PM

Yes.
Its a really cold day today and I'm chewing on ice, the fan's blowing at me and I'm curled up in a ball on my dining chair, freezing my oh-so-unbelievably-hot-and-sexy-ass off.

Daniel.L says I'm lazy because my stuff for tomorrow are still unpacked. And I'm only gonna pack my stuff later in the night. Hmm. I've yet to buy my berms for the trip yet too. I've gotta wear pants that are touching the knee. At least. :/

I'm tired, have been for way too long. Mentally and physically. But my mental self will always be tired. Recharged my physical self for the past one hour while writing the last letter. Had a power nap, which I hope will last me to the end of tomorrow. I don't want to sleep tonight..

Christine
5:40 PM

2:12 PM

No sir, well I don't wanna be the blame, not anymore.
It's your turn, so take a seat we're settling the final score.
And why do we like to hurt so much?

I can't decide
You have made it harder just to go on
And why, all the possibilities where I was wrong

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating.
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

I wonder, how am I supposed to feel when you're not here.
'Cause I burned every bridge I ever built when you were here.
I still try holding onto silly things, I never learn.
Oh why, all the possibilities I'm sure you've heard.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
I drowned out all my sense with the sound of its beating (beating)
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Pain make your way to me, to me.
And I'll always be just so inviting.
If I ever start to think straight,
This heart will start a riot in me,
Let's start, start, hey!

Why do we like to hurt so much?
Oh why do we like to hurt so much?

That's what you get when you let your heart win!
Whoa.

That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.
That's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa.

Now I can't trust myself with anything but this,
And that's what you get when you let your heart win, whoa

Christine
2:12 PM

1:13 AM

Movie marathon, sleepovers, parrrrttttyyyyyying, late-night outings to come, etc etc.

Enjoying life with fwieeends.

JO LETS GO NIGHT CYCLING! :O HAHA, or whatever thats thrilling.

Wee says to go clubbing when we're 18, which is next year. But we can always sneak in this year! Why wait?? :x :D

JOYNAAAAA, let me know when we're going out with the guysssssssss!

Shopping, Jo!

Homeworking sessions soon ok? Then we can consult Mr. Rajoo.

PEOPLEEEEE, START ASKING ME OUT! (and be on the waiting list till further notice :x)

Lol. PRAWNING! SOMEONE GO PRAWNING WITH ME!

Christine
1:13 AM

12:49 AM

Seen my true colours, but not strong enough to handle it.

Christine
12:49 AM

12:00 AM

[23:57:38]
guowen says: u r leaving soon
[23:57:40]
guowen says: =(
[23:58:04]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: ahhha. yeah.
[23:58:09]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: for a few days only (:
[23:58:16]
guowen says: yea
[23:58:25]
guowen says: but during those few itsy bitsy days
[23:58:30]
guowen says: u could get infected
[23:58:32]
guowen says: by birds
[23:58:40]
guowen says: or mosqitoes
[23:58:42]
guowen says: or snakes
[23:58:49]
guowen says: or get swallowed p by pythons
[23:58:52]
guowen says:
[23:58:58]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: lol
[23:59:02]
CHRISTINE; The shadows of ringdoves chanting, but chasing nothing. says: maybe all the better.

Thank Gods for friends like that who actually care. You know?

Christine
12:00 AM

Thursday, November 20, 2008

11:29 PM

Alas, it all comes back to square 1.

You say one thing, but mean another. You say you're staying but you say I'm leaving. Ah well, I'm almost immuned to this all, already.

CJ shooting friendlies with SPS, YTSS and JWSS went successfully thanks to Richmond's good planning and ability to go about the problems which arised last minute and solved them effectively.

Everything ended at about 6pm after debriefing and all. Went to town with Jon and waited for Jo to join us shortly after. We then walked around to shop for our berms but to no avail. Jo and I bought a basic long-sleeved top from Forever 21 though. We loooveee it, don't we? (: Left town for Suntec/Marina Square for dinner and walked around some more. Saw a shawl I like at Club Marc. I'm gonna go back to get it! As well as the Topshop shorts. Pfft, I want I want. I want the dresses I saw. I want everything.

Retail therapy and companionship(of friends) for the broken soul.

Theres gonna be a change now. I'm no longer who I am. Driven up the wall. Consumed. Changed. Reversed back to who I was, before I met you. Dead.

Christine
11:29 PM

Just a little insight won't make this right.

8:33 AM

Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can’t explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don’t want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can’t explain what you can’t explain.
You're finding things that you didn’t know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My minds unweaving
Maybe it’s best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I’m on my own side
It’s better than being on your side
It’s my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

All these thoughts locked inside
Now you’re the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends when darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It’s too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight,
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

Christine
8:33 AM

4:01 AM

You say its always been about me.

I don't think so.

Christine
4:01 AM

3:12 AM

PRAWNING!

I went to prawn at the park below my house with Dad and Nig, left the house at 12.15am. Prawned for 2 hours and I caught 3 prawns! Nig caught 0. Dad was just there to hep up hold the prawns and put on the bait. Heh heh. Could have caught alot more, but they ran away.

Anyways, I know it sounds pathetic (HUH, JOYNA! :D), but 3 prawns is like, damn bloody good. Only the psychotic prawn-whisperer (right, Sab? (:) has caught 5 prawns. So anyway, I like went on a killing spree, double killed then mega killed and became.. God-like. It was damn gay. Especially the one where I caught 2 prawns in a row. There were 2 other guys besides Nig around me, fishing in the same pond when I pulled out my first one. And when I put the bait back in again, its like, almost instantaneously, I pulled out another. I swear they were green with envy. But quite loser acually. They like, got owned by a girl :D :D :D

I cant sleep again tonight. Something's wrong with me. Maybe Christian's right, maybe I really do suffer from insomnia. Its all haunting me. I can't forget, neither can I let it all go. Shortcomings, bad memories, and those hurtful words. Bearing a grudge, being unhappy, would all make you unhappy to. I don't know what to do. Maybe I should just concentrate on studies, maybe I should stop messing with BGR. Maybe, maybe then I will not be vulnerable to you and your words, and actions. Again.. Maybe.

I need a sign. I need help. I need family. I need friends. I need comfort. I need solace. I need enlightenment. I need reassurance. I need security. I need safety. I need peace. I need solitude. I need retail therapy. I need therapy. I need a distraction. I need friends. I need family. I need God.

Maybe I sould stop messing up your life as well. Maybe it is time to let go. Mayber you're really just not the one and vice versa. Maybe. But what if you are? Then I'll never know.

Hey Christian, if you're reading this. I really think I will never find 'The One' that we were talking about. The one I found has been let slipped, and this one was, until everything bad came in. And I don't know anymore, I'm clouded, I'm smoked-screened, I'm lost, I'm disillusioned, I'm unsure, I'm insecure with my own decisions now.

I dont want a choice, I want a sign. A signal. I should start looking for one now. Start creating one now.

.

And glided couples all in whirling trance
Follow holiday revel begun long since,
Until near twelve the strange girl all at once
Guilt-stricken halts, pales, clings to the prince

Christine
3:12 AM

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

11:26 PM

1. List four random items you have.
RED the dog, RED ipod nano, RED sony cybershot T300, RED SE w910i phone(which sucks by the way)

2. Have you ever slept in the back of a car?
All the time.

3. Have you recently dyed your hair/cut it?
Nope. Went for treatment but not to cut it.

4. List four people that you look up to the most.
My mom, my dad, Oprah.

5. How many pets do you own as of now?.
1. Red. But 2 if my bro's included. Nah, kidding.

6. Which do you prefer white or black?
White.

7. Who is your most played character?
Juggernaut & Dwarven Sniper! HAHA!

8. Choose one or the other, not both: Being stuck on an island with a friend. or Being stuck on an island with 5 acquaintances.
Being stuck on an island with a (best) friend.

9. Name three aspects that tell who you are.
Easily frustrated (HAHA, Jon!), loud, me.

10. If you could have a power what would it be?
Disappear as and when I want to.

11. Who was the last person you talked to?
Nig in person.

12. Who was the last person you said “I love you” to?
Mommy.

13. Write down the first five words that pop into your head
Shooting, shopping, studying, friends, i-hate-stupid-china-communists.

14. What’s one thing you wish you could do better?
Study harder, shoot better. Manage my time freaking well.

15. Do you like the way you are?
Yeap, I like how I am.

16. Choose, summer or winter:
Autumn.

17. Rain or snow?
Snow.

18. Water or ice?
Ice.

19. List two odd things about yourself.
1. Accepting B----- as my (ex)boyfriend. HAHAHA! (given by someone else, I wont say who!)
2. I don't normally use public toilets/dirty toilets.

20. Which are two of your bad habits?
Screaming when I'm scared/shocked/killed in dota.
Violence, as Jonathan would say. HAHA

Tag 6 people who should do this quiz:
EVERYONE WHO SEES THIS. Hahah, damn I'm evil.

Christine
11:26 PM

10:35 PM

Training today, grouping was not too bad, but my shots kept going downwards, until the last series when I finally decided to sight my gun upwards, my shots went to the middle. And despite shooting two 8s, I managed a 92/100. Quote Jeremy.Y, "God-like lah."

HAHA its getting into my head, but its not a very good score anyway. the two 8s killed me, thats why, every shot counts -.-"

Maybe its just me, being unable to let go of whats happened, holding on and making myself feel all miserable, but thats just me.

Then it puzzles me as to why I'm only able to be cheered up by friends. Why? :/

Hmm. It just dawned on me. Realization and enlightenment, again. I'll cut to the chase this time, minus the white lights from the heavens and the hallelujah song booming. I'll be taking my A's next year. Its soon, too soon. I need to catch up. I've got alot on my hands, and things already aren't the same anymore. Whats going to be of us next year? I don't know if I can cope, with A's and all. I just want to get into the university. I wanna pursue my dreams, I wanna be a lawyer. And I WILL be a lawyer. I know I will.

Christine
10:35 PM

1:07 AM

Sometimes, you just can't deny these are all true, even if you're a girl. A strong girl at that.

When you break her heart - [ the pain NEVER really goes away ]

When she misses you - [ she's hurting inside ]

When she says its over - [ she STILL wants you to be hers ]

When she re-posts this bulletin - [ she wants you to read it ]

When she walks away from you mad - [ Follow her]

When she stare's at your mouth - [ Kiss her ]

When she pushes you or hit's you - [ Grab her and don’t let go ]

When she starts cursing at you - [ Kiss her and tell her you love her ]

When she ignores you - [ Give her your attention]

When she pulls away - [ Pull her back ]

When you see her at her worst - [ Tell her she's beautiful ]

When you see her start crying - [Just hold her and don’t say a word ]

When you see her walking - [ Sneak up and hug her waist from behind ]

When she's scared - [ Protect her ]

When she lays her head on your shoulder - [ Tilt her head up and kiss her ]

When she steals your favorite hat - [ Let her keep it and sleep with it for a night]

When she teases you - [ Tease her back and make her laugh ]

When she doesn’t answer for a long time - [ reassure her that everything is okay ]

When she looks at you with doubt - [ Back yourself up with the TRUTH]

When she says that she likes you - [ she really does more than you could understand ]

When she grabs at your hands - [ Hold hers and play with her fingers ]

When she bumps into you - [ bump into her back and make her laugh ]

When she tells you a secret - [ keep it safe and untold ]

When she looks at you in your eyes - [ don’t look away until she does ]

- Stay on the phone with her even if she’s not saying anything

-DON'T let her have the last word

-DON'T call her hot, but gorgeous or beautiful is soo much better

- Say you love her more than she could ever love you

- Argue that she is the best girl ever

- When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go

- When she says she's OK don’t believe it, talk with her

- because 10 yrs later she'll remember you

- Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her

- Call her before you sleep and after you wake up

- Treat her like she's all that matters to you

- Tease her and let her tease you back

-Stay up all night with her when she's sick

- Watch her favorite movie with her or her favorite show even if you think its stupid

- Give her the world

- Let her wear your clothes

- When she's bored and sad, hang out with her

- Let her know she's important

- Kiss her in the pouring rain

- When she runs up at you crying, the first thing you say is;

"Who's ass am I kicking today baby?"

Christine
1:07 AM

12:15 AM

Prom has just been over for my friends in my former secondary school, and as I view their blogs, the most common phrase my eyes automatically pick up on: "I'll definitely miss Secondary school!".

Reflecting back on this year, I can safely say, I do not miss Secondary school at all, and I am a helluva happy soul being out of Sec school. Ironic isn't it? I'm not saying anything about my friends, I'm just trying to say here that, I never really belonged in PRCS, I never felt that sense of belonging. Its weird. I don't feel that sense of belonging nor have I enjoyed schooling as much as I did in SACP, and schooling in PRCS turned out to be more of a chore, and obligation. I guess I never really fitted in. Thats why.

I've made good friends in PRCS; Joyna, Weening, Michelle, Jaena, Christian, Darryl, Alex, Alan, Nikki, Guoxin, Yanxiang, etc, but ultimately, thats all I've gained from the school. Other than knowing fantastic teachers like; Mr Azhar, Mrs Sheri, Ms Lim, Mr San, Mrs Henry, etc. Thats almost about it. I don't miss my Secondary school, period. I know its weird and I sound ungrateful, but there, I'm grateful for the teachers (some), but thats almost about it. Its just a sudden realization that dawned on me, like I've attained enlightenment, you know, with the light shining down from the heavens, with the hallelujah song in the background. Okay, hyperbole. Its just.. realization.

I've got a thousand million zillion thoughts running through my mind now, so I don't make much sense altogether and I sound/am very disorientated, but heck. You're reading this at your own free will anyways.

Christine
12:15 AM

DYING AN ANTI-SOCIAL

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

11:18 PM

I swear. I'm gonna die in Indonesia while doing OCIP out of frustration for the inability to communicate. The language committe have very kindly came up with a list of important, die-die must know words when we're in Batam. And I have no idea how I'm gonna memorize them all, then again, I think I'll just print it out and bring it with me to Batam. HAHA! Alternatively, stick with someone who can speak Bahasa. HAHA!

I'm a genius, I tell you.

Christine
11:18 PM

You'll always be my mango pudding, Xiuu! (:

10:48 PM

[22:45:33]
CHRISTINE; shine in conceit of substance upon me, who am less than the rain. says: hahahahhaha
[22:45:36]
CHRISTINE; shine in conceit of substance upon me, who am less than the rain. says: mango pudding!
[22:45:41]
xiu wen says: BANANA, jo's fave
[22:47:21]
CHRISTINE; shine in conceit of substance upon me, who am less than the rain. says: HHHAHAH thats jo la
[22:47:27]
CHRISTINE; shine in conceit of substance upon me, who am less than the rain. says: HAHAHAHA jo will be mango pudding
[22:47:36]
xiu wen says: HAHAHA'
[22:47:38]
CHRISTINE; shine in conceit of substance upon me, who am less than the rain. says: omg the braburst and sistaaas make peace hhuh
[22:47:39]
CHRISTINE; shine in conceit of substance upon me, who am less than the rain. says: hahhah
[22:48:02]
xiu wen says: HAHAHA TOGETHER WE'RE CALLED THE PUDDING BRA-TAAASSS

Lol. Inside joke. The girls will prolly understand.

I love Xiuuuuu, she's hilarious. She makes me laugh, makes me cry (cry laughing. OMG, HAHAHA JO!), makes me loveeee hanging around with her all the time.

Hey dear! Everything will be fine, tomorrow will go smoothly! I'll always be behind you together with T04, we all love you very very much, and (quote Sab) have faith! (: God's always, always with you, honey.

Christine
10:48 PM

Monday, November 17, 2008

11:46 PM

But sadly, that feeling of happiness is only temporary.

Baby, you'll never last a minute.

Christine
11:46 PM

11:39 PM

For more chalet photos:

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Christine
11:39 PM

10:38 PM

I'm still a lost soul, only a happier one now than the one like what, 9 hours ago?

Anyways, I was influenced into deciding to go last-minute shooting by Daniel.L, actually not totally. Lol. I was in a foul mood, as you all can tell from the incoherent posts and irregular motivation to post within the earlier hours. I've always went to train whenever I'm in a bad mood, so this time was no exception. And I trained for 2 consecutive details. Call me sick or weird, but it felt good (:

Met many friends and fellow shooters there who made my day. Daniel.L's random face expressions from afar whenever we happen to see each other, Desmond's playing along with my nonsense, and challenging each other, talking to Daniel.L and Desmond during my breaks, joking with Eddie, everything. Just being in the range, bring in the range takes me away from all sadness and all that bothers me, it always does. And I'm glad it does. I like the range.

Its St Pats graduation night today at the Grand Copthorne Hotel, and Dan's there with his friends and all. I hope he enjoys himself, which I know he will.

Christine
10:38 PM

But you're still with me in my dreams.

12:40 PM

I don't know what I want besides academics and shooting, I feel like a lost soul.

Christine
12:40 PM

Oh you said love was forever, and love would never break my heart. And I believed you as I fell.

11:48 AM

I've heard these words a hundred other times before, and I've been hurt so my heart has chose to close the doors. Love broke my heart and brought me lies.

But you'll protect and respect me and be all I need, and when I reach for love I'll only have to reach for you, Your arms will never let me down. You'll stay around, walk with me through every storm, keep me safe and keep me warm, I'll have no doubt, I'm the one you're living for.

Right? :/

.

I know you've heard these words a hundred other times before
And you've been hurt and so your heart has chose to close the door
Love broke your heart and brought you lies
Look in my eyes
You'll see a love that's deep and true
Tender and strong and all for you
You can trust this love
Honest, that's the honest truth

From the heart
I'm giving you everything, everything
From the heart
I promise you that I'll be there
I'll be there to love you
From the soul
I'm showing you all I feel, all I feel is
From the heart, from the heart

I will protect you and respect you and be all you need
And when you reach for love you'll only need to reach for me
These arms will never let you down
They're staying around
I'll walk with you through every storm
I'll keep you safe, I'll keep you warm
And you'll have no doubt
You're the one I'm living for

From the heart (from the heart baby)
I'm giving you everything (oh) everything (giving you everything)
From the heart (my heart)
I promise you that I'll be there (I'll be there for you)
I'll be there to love you
From the soul
I'm showing you all I feel, all I feel (I'm showing you)
All I feel (all I feel) is
From the heart, from the heart (from the heart)

I'll provide the love you need
Just trust my touch
Believe in me
I'll never make you cry
Givin' all I got with all I got inside

From the heart
I'm giving you everything, everything (giving you everything)
From the heart (from my heart)
I promise you that I'll be there (I'll be there to love you, love you, ooh)
I'll be there to love you (ohh)
From the soul (my soul)
I'm showing you all I feel (all I feel) all I feel (all I feel) is
From the heart (the heart) from the heart

Ooh, from the heart, from the heart.

Christine
11:48 AM

11:33 AM

Amidst the fun and laughter lies loneliness.
Loneliness in a different form, unnecessarily means being alone.
It is deep, you never can understand.
You probably never will anyway.
When all has been said and done,
And the dust have settled,
I have qualms of speaking what I mean to, what I feel.
I cannot speak, for speaking one's mind breeds unhappiness.
Speaking what makes people happy,
Are therefore what we would call, untrue.
So what is truth and what is not,
What should be said, and what is best to remain left unsaid.
We'll never know.
I'll never know.
The aftermath of the party only means solitude.
Leaving one to feel more lonely than ever.

Christine
11:33 AM

1:27 AM

Jeremy. C and I got bored, so we decided to come up with a poem. Its like a game; completing the sentences. We add on to each others' sentence. Its for fun, and we made it really simple. Also, you'd notice we drifted off halfway from our original theme which is also our title, 'The Insomniac', and it got a little inclined to the spiritual side. I guess thats what you get putting 2 Catholics together who are both stoned and bored, and tired, but unable to sleep.

So, here's the poem. Its titled;

'The Insomniac'.

Shut your eyes
You see a sea of black
Shut your mind
Your mind roams uncontrollably
Nothing. Nothing. Nothing-

Close your eyes
Immediate fear of black
Close your mind
So vulnerable you become
Afraid. Afraid. Afraid-

Here my child
Come to me
Fear them not
For I am here
Sleep. Sleep. Sleep.

- Jeremy.C & Christine (:

Christine
1:27 AM

Sunday, November 16, 2008

11:28 PM

1. What do they call you in class?

~ Sleeping. They took away the 'beauty' because the guys refuse to admit I am beautiful (EVEN THOUGH THEY KNOW IT!) Hahahahh! (:

2. Who is the most quiet in class?

~ Thats easy, KEONG YEE! But even the quietest of my class is not exactly quiet. Lol.

3. Which teacher always gets angry with you all?

~ HAHAHA they dont get angry with all only a handful of us. And that'll be many teachers.

4. Who is always the earliest to reach school?

~ I dont know. Never early enough to find our who the earliest is.

5. Who is always late enter class ?

~ HAHA, easy. The standard: Fel, Jo, Jon or me. Oh the best one is yet to come, yes honey, I'm talking about you, Xiuwen! :D

6. Who is the smartest?

~ Majority of the class is, and sadly I'm in the minority ):

7. Who always sleep in class?

~ Okay okay, I'll speak of the truth and only the truth. Everyone else but me. Okay, fine. Yours truly. Theres a reason why they call me sleeping(beauty) you know..

8. Who is the leader of the class?

~ Fellow sistaaaa, future president ALOYSIUS!

9. Which subject do you hate most?

~ CHINESE! ching ching chong

10. What was the worst punishment in class?

~ LUCY LEE MAKING US WRITE "I WILL NOT SKIP CHINESE CLASS EVER AGAIN" 100 TIMES. worse part of it all; write lines IN CHINESE. she best.

11. What do you bring to class?

~ Everything you'll find in a students bag, plus moisturizer, hair stuff, shooting jacket, and the not-so-occasional laptop.

12. What is the best subject?

~ HAHA. General knowledge quiz can?

13. What do you always do in class?

~ Get chased out of the class to the library to complete hw. WITH JOANNE! Lol.

14.Have you ever get scoldings from yr teacher ?

~ Lol, kinda.

15.whats your position in clss fr MYE ?

~ One of the last?

16.Have you ever had become first in class?

~ In my dreams. Yes Jon, I know.

17.who do you sit with ?

~ KEONG and SAM! (:

18.people around you ?

~ XIUU, JO, FEL, SAB, TEACHER

Christine
11:28 PM