I dreamed I was missing You were so scared But no one would listen Cause no one else cared
After my dreaming I woke with this fear What am I leaving When I'm done here
So if you're asking me I want you to know
When my time comes Forget the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed
And don't resent me And when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest Leave out all the rest
Don't be afraid I've taken my beating I've shared what I made
I'm strong on the surface Not all the way through I've never been perfect But neither have you
So if you're asking me I want you to know
When my time comes Forget the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me And when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest Leave out all the rest
Forgetting All the hurt inside You've learned to hide so well
Pretending Someone else can come and save me from myself I can't be who you are
When my time comes Forget the wrong that I've done Help me leave behind some Reasons to be missed
Don't resent me And when you're feeling empty Keep me in your memory
Leave out all the rest Leave out all the rest
Forgetting All the hurt inside You've learned to hide so well
Pretending Someone else can come and save me from myself I can't be who you are I can't be who you are
Christine
9:38 PM
Friday, September 26, 2008
9:01 AM
For people who think they're not good looking. At least you're not 'Uranium Gysotomic Lynostic Yeast-infection' (:
Christine
9:01 AM
Thursday, September 25, 2008
11:40 PM
Received news from Mr Tan yesterday that Eunice did fan-ta-bulous-ly well at the shoot in Vietnam. She managed to clinch Individual Fourth and her team came in Second! So happy for her, its a really good achievement, considering the fact that this isn't a local competition. Honour to the CJ APW TEAM! (:
CONGRATS EUNICE! :D
Okay, time for bad news. In 15 minues time I'll only be 3 days away from my first Promos paper. NOOO ):
MUG MUG MUG
Oh, but no matter how busy there's always (almost, some) time to appreciate good music. So there,
Beautiful, truly beautiful.
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Take a breath I pull myself together Just another step till I reach the door You’ll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you I wish that I could tell you something To take it all away
Sometimes I wish I could save you And there’re so many things that I want you to know I won’t give up till it’s over If it takes you forever I want you to know
When I hear your voice Its drowning in a whisper It’s Just skins and bones There’s nothing left to take No matter what I do I can’t make you feel better If only I could find the answer To help me understand
Sometimes I wish I could save you And there’re so many things that I want you to know I wont give up till it’s over If it takes you forever I want you to know
That if you fall, stumble down I’ll pick you up off the ground If you lose faith in you I’ll give you strength to pull through Tell me you won't give up cause I’ll be waiting if you fall Oh you know I’ll be there for you
(Ahahaha) If only I could find the answer To take it all away
Sometimes i wish i could save you And there’re so many things that I want you to know I wont give up till it's over If it takes you forever I want you to know (Oh) I wish I could save you I want you to know (Ohohh) I wish I could save you (oh)
Christine
11:40 PM
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
8:11 PM
Yo, Brotha A to z, Yo, wussup B, Yo, What time is it?
Ha-ha, It's laundry day!
(do do do...)
Well let the geek in the pink take a stab at it If you like the way I'm thinkin' baby wink at it I may be skinny at times but I'm fat for the rhymes Pass me the mic and I'm a grab at it Well isn't it delicious crazy way that I'm kissin' This baby listen to this don't wanna miss it while it's hittin' Sometimes you gotta fit in to get in But don't ever quit cause soon I'm gonna let you in but see
I don't care what you might think about me You'll get by without me if you want Well,I could be the one to take you home Baby we could rock the night alone If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down But sugar don't forgetin' what you already know That I could be the one to turn you on We could be the talk across the town Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another You might regret what you let slip away
like the geek in the pink (do do do...) well like the geek in the pink, yeah (geek in the pink)
Well my relationship fodder don't mean to bother nobody But Cupid's automatic musta fired multiple shots at her Because she fall in love too often that's what the matter At least when i'm talking about it keep a pattern of flattery and She was starin' through the doorframe,and Eyeing me down like already a bad boyfriend Well she can get her toys outta the drawer then Cause I ain't comin' home I don't need that attention, see
I don't care what she might think about me She'll get by without me if she wants well, I could be the one to take her home Baby we could rock the night alone If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down But sugar don't forgettin' what you already know that I could be the one to turn you on We could be the talk across the town Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another You might regret what you let slip away
Hey baby look at me go From zero to hero You better take it from a geek like me Well I can save you from unoriginal dum-dums Who wouldn't care if you com....plete them or not
So what I've got a short attention span A coke in my hand Because I'd rather have the afternoon, relax and understand My hip hop and flip-flops well it don't stop with the light rock A shot to mock you kinda puts me in the tight spot The hype is nothing more than hoo-ha so I'm Developing a language and I'm callin' it my own So take a peek into the speaker and you'll see what I mean That on the other side the grass is greener
I don't care what you might think about me You'll get by without me if you want I could be the one to take you home Baby we could rock the night alone If we never get down it wouldn't be a let down But sugar don't forgetin' what you already know I could be the one to turn you on We could be the talk across the town Don't judge it by the color, confuse it for another You might regret what you let slip away like the geek in the pink (do do do...) I'm the geek in the pink ya'll geek is the color for fall i'm the geek in the pink so i'm the geek ya'll in the pink ya'll geek is the color for fall i'm the geek in the pink
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Back braces in school suck ):
Christine
8:11 PM
Saturday, September 20, 2008
1:06 PM
Skies are dark It's time for rain Final call You board the train Heading for tomorrow
I wave goodbye to yesterdays Wipe the tears, you hide your face Blinded by the sorrow
How can I be smiling like before When baby you don't love me anymore?
Say it isn't so Tell me you're not leaving Say you've changed your mind now, That I am only dreaming, That this is not goodbye, This is starting over Mmmmm.... If you wanna know I don't wanna let go, So say it isn't so
Ten to five at least we've tried We're still alive but hope just died As they close the door behind you Whistle blows and tons of steel Shake the ground beneath the wheels As I wish I'd never found you, whoa...
How can I be smiling when you're gone Will I be strong enough to carry on?
Say it isn't so Tell me you're not leaving Say you've changed your mind now, That I am only dreaming, That this is not goodbye, This is starting over Say I'm not wide awake If you wanna know I don't wanna let go, So say it isn't so
Miles and miles to go, Before I can say, before I can lay My love for you to sleep Oh darling oh I've got miles and miles to go, Before anyone will ever hear Me laugh again.
Say it isn't so Tell me you're not leaving Say you've changed your mind now, That I am only dreaming, That this is not goodbye, This is starting over Say I'm not wide awake If you wanna know I don't wanna let go So say it isn't so
Say you've changed your mind now, That I am only dreaming, That this is not goodbye, This is starting over Say I'm not wide awake If you wanna know I don't wanna let go So say isn't so
If you wanna know I don't wanna let go So say it isn't so
Christine
1:06 PM
12:32 PM
I feel so clouded. I don't know what exactly is true anymore.
Studied with the airport with Jo and Jon yesterday till almost 6am. But half the time, Jon was talking and disturbing us, and making us play that mind game, and the other half, I was sleeping because I really lacked sleep from the sleepless nights due to PW. Its weird, but then again, what is there really for me to say? You've been so cold these days, too cold. But then again, maybe its the exams stress taking its toll on you, on us. So I don't wanna complain. We can all just leave it this way. And as the exams draw nearer, we'll draw further, and secretly hope we'll be reconciled again some time. Some time soon. Reconciled not in the physical sense, but reconciliation of our hearts. No matter how hard we try to deny, its already a known fact, its already came true, our hearts have drawn apart, been drawn apart by the exams.
Christine
12:32 PM
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
8:17 PM
ZOMG ZOMG. PW SUBMISSION OF WR's THIS FRIDAY! :O
I take pride in our group's work and efforts. Did WR yesterday till 7pm, and till 6+pm today. But at least we managed to tie up all the small loose ends of our WR. YAY (: Our blog's even done up.
www.cj13-2008.blogspot.com
Its so cool okay! (:
Thanks guys! Jo, Yoke, Patsy, and Justin (:
Christine
8:17 PM
Monday, September 15, 2008
11:47 PM
RUN BABY RUN DONT EVER LOOK BACK, THEY'LL TEAR US APART IF YOU GIVE THEM THE CHANCE.
Forever will be, you and me.
And that was all I really needed, all I needed to hear to keep me going on. And somehow I know these chest pains and congested feelings are not the same as those I felt yesterday. Already, its enough to know. To know you're here.
Christine
11:47 PM
Sunday, September 14, 2008
10:17 PM
When you're too in love to let it go.
I'm scared. I need to mug. I feel dead. Really dead. I feel like a computerised robot and I've been programmed to just study. I feel switched off. I need a power generator to keep me running.
It's 2 o'clock in the morning And I'm waking up reaching out To cover you and then it all Comes back I see your keys On the dresser And they're exactly Where you left them On the day That you walked Out of my life
Who's gonna love you now? Who's gonna be the one To catch you falling When your world Comes crashing down like I do? Who's gonna hold you down? Who's gonna see your heart Beyond Your Faults When you can't admit your wrong?
When trouble comes to find you Will she stay and walk with you? Tolerate all your excuses And keep on loving you? Does she swing with your moods? Does she know How you like your food? Does she laugh At your stupid jokes Especially the one That I hate the most
Who's gonna pick up your mess? (That you always seem To leave behind you) And make sense Of your loose ends (Cos ain't nobody gon do What I do for you)
Christine
10:17 PM
1:33 AM
When you try your best, but you don't succeed When you get what you want, but not what you need When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep Stuck in reverse
And the tears come streaming down your face When you lose something you can't replace When you love someone but it goes to waste Could it be worse?
Lights will guide you home, And ignite your bones, And I will try to fix you,
High up above or down below When you're too in love to let it go But if you never try you'll never know Just what you're worth
Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you
Tears stream down your face When you lose something you cannot replace Tears stream down your face And I
Tears stream down your face I promise you I will learn from my mistakes Tears stream down your face And I
Lights will guide you home And ignite your bones And I will try to fix you
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But who will? Maybe, rather, who can? Its like Deja vu. Whats with obsession with computer games? Or maybe its just guys. Really, deja vu. What could be worse? I don't know. I don't have the answer to anything. I always thought I'd be the less strong one, the more disturbed one, the one who was more distracted in all else. And I dont deny, I dont deny its an overestimation on my part.
So what could be worse?
Wasting an entire day not studying at all. That is what's worse.
And so what if I needed this day to relax desperately? I lived it like I've lived it before. Deja vu. And I hate it.
I'm gonna go back to burying myself in books.
What exaclty could be worse?
Christine
1:33 AM
Saturday, September 13, 2008
1:01 PM
I know a place where we can hide out And turn our hearts inside out They won't know who we are They won't know who we are.
Wednesday studied wit Jo till 10pm. Thursday studied with Jo and Keong till 10pm, Keong left earlier at 9pm though. Yesterday.
Yesterday, school ended at 2pm. Daddy fetched me and we went to buy stuff so I got home at 3.30pm. Washed up and all, and left for airport. Reached the airport at 5pm and studied at BK till 8.30pm. I was hoping to get a seat at Coffee Bean instead actually. But it was packed ): Anyways at 8.45pm I left BK to go get hairbands and went to the Viewing Hall at 9pm. Rested there for 20 minutes before continuing again, to study. This time at Gloria Jean's Coffee though. Studied till 12am, then Dad came with Nig and we headed to T3 to fetch Mommy, then had supper at Swensens till 2.30am. Reached home at 2.45am, slept at 3.15am.
Thanks Mommy for the many many bags.
I feel like a robot. So monotonous. And today I wanted to study in the morning, but I only woke up at 12.30pm, and I feel so angry and frustrated. Those wasted hours spent sleeping. They could have been put to better use. So annoying.
I really wonder where I'm heading to, whats this all about? Since when was living all about coping with stress? You know, how everyone says all who stays on top are those who are able to study? In my opinion, those who stay on top are crazy.
I feel burnt out, and its not good.. I'm really afraid now.
And this is the way that I say, I need you.
Christine
1:01 PM
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
10:55 PM
Studied with Jo in school after Lit today from 4pm. Stayed back till 10pm, we studied for a minimum of 4 hours straight, minus bathing timing and dinner time. Productive, I'd say (:
A special mention: Thanks Cheston for the ferrero rochers and cooking the codfish for us on the steamboat/bbq dinner on my birthday eve. I know you'll read this someday, whenever, that is (:
Thanks again! (:
Christine
10:55 PM
Monday, September 08, 2008
9:34 PM
I feel exceptionally vulnerable. I'm afraid, of what; I don't know.
I'm now 3 days into joining the 17-year-old-club and I'm feeling really bad. To be honest, I don't feel any different. In fact, I just feel more afraid. Because pass August signifies promos coming in less than a month.
I wanna start all over again!
Fear grips my heart like never before. Not even O's. It frighteningly stressful.
I guess I need assurance, I need help to get me standing on my own two feet again. But I don't even know if I can be helped on getting back up. And its things like these I'll never say.
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I'm standing on the edge and I don't know what else to give.
I never, never thought that I would fall like that Never knew that I could hurt this bad
So this is the way I say I need You This is the way that I say I love You This is the way that I say I'm Yours This is the way, this is the way
Christine
9:34 PM
Saturday, September 06, 2008
9:05 AM
Past 2 days were crazy.
Anyways, Wednesday we went out to study. John, Cheston, Eugene, and Ayden. Eugene left early and Ayden came late. But shortly after, Ayden's mom called for help to move some stuff so we all headed to his house to help move the garden chairs. Haha. Studied there for a while. And his mom was so nice, she offered so many nice treats and even offered to let us stay for dinner. But I couldn't cause I had PW.
So I left earlier, and went home to bathe before heading to NLB for PW meeting. We did PW till really late. By the time we finished discussion and dinner, it was already 12pm. Stayed at Macs to wait for Daddy to come pick me up.
Thursday.
School in the morning, and headed home to prepare for the guys coming over. The guys came over early. And Daniel brought 2 boxes of Royce, and an Awfully Chocolate cake. Thanks, Love :D John and Ayden got me the two egg like shape thingy containing a Stitch and a Mickey Mouse which changes colour (: Watched House of Wax, then Mommy came back with packed Subways, and we had Steamboat. Then we all went to play games like Uno Stacko and monopoly. Daniel, Ayden and Jeremy left earlier though. While Cheston John, Nigel and continued. We played till 12.30am before realising it was THAT late. So Daddy drived them back and we reached home at 1am.
Friday.
I told them to wake me up at 7am so I could start studying. But I had a (kinda) hungover-from monopoly and food- so I couldn't wake up and only woke up at 10am. Lazed in my room a little more, when YX and Darryl called. Asking if I was going out with Daniel today, because they saw Daniel at Sentosa. With another girl. So I went, " Yeap. He's at Sentosa with his sister cause its her birthday." lol. They meant well though. Haha. Dan won't cheat on me. I know (:
Took my clothes to go bathe, but the minute I opened the door I saw Patrick, Mark, Fel, Jo, Justin and Aloy (with a strawberry umbrella) charging at me. It was shocking, because I was in pyjamas >.<>.< Lol. Mark very kindly got me a bar of Cadbury chocolates! Thanks Mark! :D And then Patrick (very sharply) noticed what was in my hands. My inner spectacles. :X
Fel or Justin asked if I had expected them to come, and I said no, only to be interrupted by Patrick saying, "Can really tell she wasn't expecting us because if she was she wouldn't be holding her ***" And he went on to tease me about it. Lol. Watched movies and ate alot. Mommy bought us Subway and Sakae. And she bought us so much, there was so much left overs.
They left at about 5.30pm if I'm not wrong. You know the class if really really fantastic. Everything seems to be magically unravelled/unravelling by itself. Disputes and all that our class seldom has. Thank you guys, for everything. The tarts, and socks which is labelled from Monday to Friday by Justin and Yoke, the Strawberry unbrella which is not too small but not big enough for practical use, and the bar of chocs even though I'm trying to lose weight here, and charging in while I'm in my PJs (Elmo one some more). Lol. I love T04 (:
John and Cheston came back with Nig after they're lunch with Mr. Lak. Nig bought me a bar of Chocolates, and Cheston got me Ferrero Rochers! Thank you, both! :D Cheston and John very kindly came to help us with the food, because we had Subway left and an entire untouched box of Sushis. Played Monopoly till 10pm, then we sent them back and went to Cheesecake Cafe.
Thanks everyone, for everything. Esp, T04 and the SPS shooters and non-shooters (AYDEN!), and (but-of-course), Dan (:
Christine
9:05 AM
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
9:23 PM
Singapore flyer with Dan on Tuesday. Our flight was at 6pm. Had school in the morning, then met Dan in the afternoon and made our way to Suntec so I could change. Had lunch with Mommy. Waffles at Gelare! (: And made our way to Vivo where we made a bear. Lol. Then made our way to Singapore flyer, and after to NUM to get my haivanas. And then home. Thanks Love for all the efforts you put in planning and the bear, Dantine! (:
Christine
9:23 PM
12:18 AM
Pictures taken today will be uploaded prolly tmr or something.
But in the meant time, entertain yourself with this video. Mr Rajoo showed it to us in lecture previously and today Aiden and I were talking about it, and I decided to youtube it.
Have a good laugh (:
Leno: Who is Fidel Castro? Passerby: Er.. a singer?
Seriously. Hahah.
Christine
12:18 AM
Monday, September 01, 2008
11:35 PM
Many things happened the past few days. Sunday, supposed to join the class for BayBeats after our PW meeting at Raffles City, but our meeting ended late, so I couldn't make it to Bay Beats because I had to meet Mommy to go to Comex to buy my photo printer :D
Anyways, I know Love would be happier with me sticking with Mom, and Mom would be happy if I accompanied her instead (: I'm glad I got to spend time with her too. I'll go out with the class another time (:
Today's Dan's and my 4th month anniversary, and we got to spend the day together, along with some friends (:
Supposed to meet John and his friend Aiden at the train station at 8am, but (as usual, as John would say) I was late >.< half an hour late. Lol. Aiden and I arrived at about the same time. Made our way to Tenah Merah to meet Dan, then we made our way to Parkway Parade and Cheston and one more of their friend, Eugene met us there. Studied for a while before we headed for our badminton game. Played for 2 whole hours. Singles, doubles. We were all tired.
Dan left first for home because he had tuition and we all left also subsequently for home because they were all too tired, while I went to the library at Pasir Ris to continue studying, then Dad picked me up after picking up Nig from Safra. Heh.
Tomorrow there's school, but still, its gonna be a good day because Dan's taking me out for a "birthday date" as he calls it. He's celebrating it early with me because his sister's and my birthday falls on the same day, so understandably, he wont be able to celebrate with me on the actual day, but its okay. At least we've got tomorrow (:
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