The shadows of ringdoves chanting but chasing nothing.

Sunday, May 27, 2007

4:12 PM

Thanks for the memories - FOB

I'm gonna make you bend and break
(It sent you to me without wings)
Say a prayer but let the good times roll
In case God doesn't show
(Let the good times roll, let the good times roll)
And I want these words to make things right
But it's the wrongs that make the words come to life
"Who does he think he is?"
If that's the worst you got
Better put your fingers back to the keys

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

Been looking forward to the future
But my eyesight is going bad
And this crystal ball
It's always cloudy except for (except for)
When you look into the past (look into the past)
One night stand (one night stand off)

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

They say I only think in the form of crunching numbers
In hotel rooms collecting page six lovers
Get me out of my mind and get you out of those clothes
I'm a liner away from getting you into the mood, whoa

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

One night and one more time (One more night, one more time)
Thanks for the memories
even though they weren't so great
"He tastes like you only sweeter"
One night, yeah, and one more time (One more night, one more time)
Thanks for the memories, thanks for the memories
"He, he tastes like you only sweeter"

Christine
4:12 PM

4:10 PM

Famous Last Words - MCR

Now I know
That I can't make you stay
But where's your heart?
But where's your heart?
But where's your...

And I know
There's nothing I can say
To change that part
To change that part
To change...

So many
Bright lights, they cast a shadow
But can I speak?
Well is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A life that's so demanding
I get so weak
A love that's so demanding
I can't speak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Can you see
My eyes are shining bright
Cause I'm out here
On the other side
Of a jet black hotel mirror
And I'm so weak
Is it hard understanding
I'm incomplete
A love that's so demanding
I get weak

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

These bright lights have always blinded me
These bright lights have always blinded me
I say

I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

(How can I see, I see you lying) 'Cause I see you lying next to me
(How can I see, I see you lying) With words I thought I'd never speak
(How can I see, I see you lying) Awake and unafraid
(How can I see, I see you lying) Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

'Cause I see you lying next to me
With words I thought I'd never speak
Awake and unafraid
Asleep or dead

I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home
(Or dead)
I am not afraid to keep on living
I am not afraid to walk this world alone
(Or dead)
Honey if you stay, I'll be forgiven
Nothing you can say can stop me going home

Christine
4:10 PM

Saturday, May 26, 2007

3:21 PM

Went to the gym yesterday. The same one I went to last week. They're trying to get us to join their gym as members. But mummy wants to check out California and Planet Fitness first before joining, because Sky Fitness's membership fees are more expensive than the other two.

But Sky's nice. Its located next to Vivo City. But if we were to sign up, we'll prolly be going there twice a week. And we'll have our personal trainer. Nig and me are assigned to a trainer named Don. He's big, as in really really big built. We did this set of simple workout first yesterday to relieve stress. And hey, it actually really works.

MT O's on monday, I'd better get back to mugging. Won't be coming online often. Till then :D

PS, Stop acting like a bitch :D

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Let the record play,
Let the record play,
Let the record play.

The way that you dance,
The way that you move,
The way that you stare at me across the room,
You carry Dior bags,
And you got your Chanel,
You wear Louis Vuitton, HG, and YSL,
Now I got Bathing Ape,
I got DCMA
I got brass knuckles hanging,
From my neck and my chain,
I got a model 26,
But she stays in her place,
I got a kershaw neatly,
Tucked inside in my waist.

And the record keeps playing,
The same old song,
The hipsters mean mugging on me all night long,
They say "Aha, ahha",
Keep your hands off my girl,
Keep your hands off my girl,
They say "Aha, ahha",
But the record keeps playing,
The same old song,
They say "Aha, ahha",
Keep your hands off my girl,
Keep your hands off my girl.

Now she's sweating my friends,
And my hurricane shoes,
She likes the records I spin,
My Adam Barton tattoos,
But she can't say "what's up",
So what does she do,
She just stays posted up,
The other side of the room,
I got AMC tattooed on my hand,
I got black wall street on a black bandana.

And the record keeps playing,
The same old song,
The hipsters mean mugging on me all night long,
They say "Aha, ahha",
Keep your hands off my girl,
Keep your hands off my girl,
They say "Aha, ahha",
But the record keeps playing,
The same old song,
They say "Aha, ahha",
Keep your hands off my girl,
Keep your hands off my girl.

She, she, she don't wanna talk about it,
He, he, he wants to fight about,
Me, me, I don't wanna fight about it,
I just wanna be about it,
I'm just trying to stay up out it,
Step out the wagon,
You know the boy starts to hate,
The girl that came with him,
That's like "that's not the boy she dates",
They get the fighting and swearing,
And now the boyfriend is staring,
The disco ball on the ceiling,
Looks like the chain that I'm wearing,
But the music keeps blaring,
I got brass knuckles hanging,
from my neck and my chain,
I got brass knuckles hanging,
from my neck and my chain.

And the record keeps playing,
The same old song,
The hipsters mean mugging on me all night long,
They say "Aha, ahha",
Keep your hands off my girl,
Keep your hands off my girl,
And the record keeps playing,
The same old song,
The hipsters mean mugging on me all night long,
They say "Aha, ahha",
Keep your hands off my girl,
Keep your hands off my girl.

You carry Dior bags,
And you got your Chanel,
You wear Louis Vuitton, HG, and YSL,
Now I got Bathing Ape,
I got DCMA,
I got brass knuckles hanging,
From my neck and my chain,
I got brass knuckles hanging,
From my neck and my chain.

Christine
3:21 PM

Friday, May 25, 2007

3:03 PM

Decided to come online for a short post. Because? I am ecstatic :D

I, Christine Teo, have finally for once in my (secondary school) life, gotten back my report book in school, on my own, because I have managed to pass all my subjects, and my overall results. And actually, erm, I think everyone else got their report book back whether or not they cleared 5 subjects -.-"

Whatever, at least I passed all. But my results were still not ideal. I'll strive harder for Prelims and O levels! I really want to do well.

Oh yes, it was the last lesson of the 10-day crash course for O levels Mother Tongue at Jiang yesterday. Sad, really. I'll miss all 7 of them. Especially Vanessa. And Qiyang. And Yao Zhong. And Sherrie. And Joash. And Lydia. And Shaun. Oh, especially the 7 of them then. I've never had a tuition group as close as this ever. I've known Vanessa and Qiyang for 4 years. Shaun Sherrie and Lyd for prolly 2 years. And the remaining Yaozhong and Joash, I've just known them and will prolly not see them anymore till after O's. But we were all really close even though they have just joined. Its like this big family of Jiang.

We really got to meet up some time after O's for our usual tuition dinner! I love Jiang peepos :D

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I've been high I've been low
I've been fast I've been slow
I've had nowhere to go
Missed the bus missed the show
I've been down on my luck
I've felt like giving up
My life locked in a trunk
When it hurt way too much
I needed a reason to live
Some love inside me to give
I couldn't rest I had to keep on searching

Te busqué debajo de las piedras y no te encontré
En la mañana fría y en la noche te busqué
Hasta enloquecer
Pero tú llegaste a mi vida como una luz
Sanando las heridas de mi corazón
Haciéndome sentir vivo otra vez.

I've been too sad to speak and too tired to eat
Been too lonely to sing the devil cut off my wings
I've been hurt by my past but I feel the future

In my dreams and it lasts I wake up I'm not sure
I wanted to find the light something just didn't feel right
I needed an answer to end all my searching

I look in the mirror the picture's getting clearer
I wanna be myself but does the world really need her
I ache for this earth
I stopped going to church
See God in the trees makes me fall to my knees
My depression keeps building like a cup overfilling
My heart so rigid I keep it in the fridge
It hurts so bad that I can't dry my eyes
Cause they keep on refillin' with the tears that I cry

Christine
3:03 PM

Thursday, May 10, 2007

5:02 PM

This will really be the last time I'm gonna come online to blog. I need to concentrate fully on my academics. I did badly for the Geography paper. ):

Yes, I think you've gone over the line of respect for others. But whatever you say, I figured there's no point getting upset over it. Cause you don't even know me well. I don't think and consider myself an ah-lian. I never considered myself bad or big, or whatever. Point is, there is no need for me to get depressed or emo over you cause it's obvious you're not my friend at all. You can say whatever you like, cause really. People can believe what they want, there's no point trying to change their impressions. And neither should you be given the right to judge me, what's more label me. Because you yourself don't have the guts to admit who you are and are hiding behind a screen-name. And, I know who you are. But I won't confront you or ask you about this. I'm just going to treat you as per normal because, hey! I FORGIVE YOU :D
Goodbye, sher.

I guess this is goodbye also, till after my 'O' levels (:

Christine
5:02 PM

Sunday, May 06, 2007

9:33 PM

I was blown away.
What could I say?
It all seemed to make sense.
You've taken away everything,
And I can't deal with that.
I try to see the good in life,
But good things in life are hard to find.
We'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Taken all I could take,
And I cannot wait.
We're wasting too much time
Being strong, holding on.
Can't let it bring us down.
My life with you means everything,
So I won't give up that easily.
I'll blow it away, blow it away.
Can we make this something good?
'Cause it's all misunderstood.
Well, I'll try to do it right this time around.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

We can't let this get away.
Let it out, let it out.
Don't get caught up in yourself.
Let it out.

Let's start over.
I'll try to do it right this time around.
It's not over.
'Cause a part of me is dead and in the ground.
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Let's start over.
It's not over, yeah...
This love is killing me,
But you're the only one.
It's not over.

Christine
9:33 PM

12:43 AM

Oh yes, before I actually forget. There's this anti-Christine going on in friendster and I'm sure many have seen it, but really. I can just report the user to friendster and get the user banned. but I'm not doing so. Maybe some of you may say I'm just being hypocritical. But seriously, I don't see the need to. I'm not suprised if people actually dislike me. Cause I dislike some people too. I wouldn't expect everyone to like me because not everyone would be able to accept me for who I am. But honestly, my conscience is clear, I'd never spam, create anti-profiles on friendster to try defame a person no matter how much I dislike her. The furthest I would go would be badmouthing. And whoever it is, I would know my limits.

Anyway, the whole point of blogging this post would be to say. Whoever you are, I forgive you. And I seriously forgive you from the bottom of my heart. Because, I'm a believe in forgiving. For the past few weeks I've been constantly stressed on the importance of forgiving. And now, I get to practice forgiving. You'd prolly hate me even more after reading this. But really, I forgive you. Neither do I want to know who you are for the sake of revenge or anything. Revenge brings us to no where, its always forgiveness which brings us through.

So long, and goodnight.

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"Forgive us our trespasses, as we forgive those who trespass against us."

Christine
12:43 AM

Saturday, May 05, 2007

11:10 PM

I'm changing my blog song again. Hahahhahahaa >.< I swear I'm not going to come online for the fun of coming online anymore as of today. -.-" Concentrate, Christine.

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Hey girl, you know you drive me crazy
one look puts the rhythm in my hand.
Still I'll never understand why you hang around
I see what's going down.

Cover up with make up in the mirror
tell yourself, it's never gonna happen again
you cry alone and then he swears he loves you.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

A pebble in the water makes a ripple effect
every action in this world will bear a consequence
If you wade around forever you will surely drown
I see what's going down.

I see the way you go and say you're right again,
say you're right again
heed my lecture

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

Face down in the dirt, she said,
this doesn't hurt, she said,
I finally had enough.
Face down in the dirt, she said,
this doesn't hurt, she said,
I finally had enough.

One day she will tell you that she has had enough
he's coming round again.

Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.
Do you feel like a man when you push her around?
Do you feel better now as she falls to the ground?
Well I'll tell you my friend, one day this world's going to end
as your lies crumble down, a new life she has found.

Face down in the dirt, she said,
this doesn't hurt, she said,
I finally had enough.

Christine
11:10 PM

12:01 AM

Wanted to put DanceDance, I love that song. But, oh wells. THen I just found out YH has put Maneater on her blog, cause its surprising. I was still contemplating that song for my blog on the way back in the car. But heck, there's no lack of good songs also. This song's old as well, but who really cares? Enjoy (:

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I am an arms dealer
Fitting you with weapons in the form of words
And don't really care which side wins
As long as the room keeps singing
That's just the business I'm in, yeah

This ain't a scene, it's a goddamned arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a goddamned arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a goddamned arms race
I'm not a shoulder to cry on
But I digress

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate,
Oh so intricate
I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate,
Oh so intricate

I wrote the gospel on giving up
(You look pretty sinking)
But the real bombshells have already sunk
(Prima donnas of the gutter)
At night we're painting your trash gold while you sleep
Crashing not like hips or cars,
No, more like p-p-p-parties

This ain't a scene, it's a goddamned arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a goddamned arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a goddamned arms race
This bandwagon's full
Please, catch another

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate,
Oh so intricate
I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate,
Oh so intricate

Yeahh…
Whoa-ohh

All the boys who the dance floor didn't love
And all the girls whose lips couldn't move fast enough
Sing, until your lungs give out

This ain't a scene, it's a goddamned arms race
This ain't a scene, it's a goddamned arms race
(Now you)
This ain't a scene, it's a goddamned arms race
(Wear out the groove)
This ain't a scene, it's a goddamned arms race
(Sing out loud)
This ain't a scene, it's a goddamned arms race
(Oh, oh)
This ain't a scene, it's a goddamned arms race

I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate,
Oh so intricate
I'm a leading man
And the lies I weave are oh so intricate,
Oh so intricate

Christine
12:01 AM