Thursday, August 31, 2006
4:15 PM
I got back my report book today. PARENTS NEED NOT COME DOWN TO MEET MS. LIM! AYEEEEEEEEEEE
Christine
4:15 PM
4:04 PM
Manicure and pedicure later! (:
Detention yesterday sucks.
Christine
4:04 PM
Monday, August 28, 2006
7:30 AM
Oh, I forgot to say, I changed my blogskin! (: This is much more.. colourful. Compared to my previous skins, which are mainly, black, white, or red. This has a "mixture" of many different colours. I think its unique.
The song in my blog's finally playing! (: The song's Paris Hilton - Stars are blind.
Christine
7:30 AM
7:18 AM
I'm not going to school today. My temperature yesterday was 38.7, then I went to sleep for awhile before heading to the doctors. At that time, my temperature was 37.9, my temperature went down. Reached home, and went to sleep again. -.-" I woke up at only 12am. My temperature was 38.3 at that time.
I miss Bear ):
Christine
7:18 AM
Saturday, August 26, 2006
9:47 PM
Today's a fabulous day (: I told myself "Must blog on today, must blog on today."
I didn't make it to watch CIO perform. I met Bear at 1.15pm, when Mommy agreed to let me out. Mommy and Daddy were like, "forced" to listen to me and listen to my thoughts after I refused to eat dinner for 4 days continuously. I survived on brunches mostly. Haha, so dumb -.-"
They allowed me to go out with Bear, and its their first time agreeing. :D I was over the mooooooooon. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA. I still am.
I don't know why, but everytime I'm leaving the house to meet him, I feel this strong sense of excitement bubbling within me or something. My heartbeat increases dramatically =x I swear one day I'm gonna die of heart-attack of something if this continues. Ughh..
We met the others after wasting much time waiting for them, and while waiting, we saw many many PRCS students. Helped Dickson get his present and walked around TM. I love going out with Bear (: Ate our dinners/lunch, and later went on to proceed to TMart while I went for tuition.
Its touching to see Bear making the effort to gain Mommy's trust/favour for him. He's really trying. And trying really hard. He doesn't know, but it just means so much. Also, I love him so much (:
Christine
9:47 PM
Friday, August 25, 2006
2:06 PM
Physiotherapy for me- is this how you even spell physiotherapy? Nevermind.
Our one month was.. umm, wasted like that. But I got to see him for 15 minutes, and I was contented (:
Don't think I'll be going for tomorrow's CIO performance. Not really prepared, the most I can do is to go there as an audience, like what Weening is doing.
So many things have happened lately, and I really want to blog about it, but, I can't seem to remember what happened. Prolly due to the many many events happening one after another. So, I'll leave it like that.
I really really love you, alot (:
Christine
2:06 PM
Sunday, August 20, 2006
1:21 AM
Happy 1st Month! :D
I love you Bear (:
Christine
1:21 AM
Saturday, August 19, 2006
11:40 AM
Don't be so cheapskate lah. Piss off.
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I know we haven't seen each other in a while but you will always be My Boo.
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the poem,
Interview With God.
I dreamed I had an interview with God.
"So you would like to interview me?" God asked.
"If you have the time," I said.
God smile. "My time is eternity.
What questions do you have in mind for me?"
"What suprises you most about humankind?"
God answered ...
"That they get bored with childhood,
they rush to grow up, and then
long to be children again.
That they lose their health to make money ...
and then lose their money to restore their health.
That by thinking anxiously about the future,
they forget the present,
such that they live in neither
the present nor the future.
That they live as if they will never die,
and die as though they had never lived."
God's hand took mine
and we were silent for a while.
And then I asked ...
"As a parent, what are some of life's lessons
you want your children to lean?"
"To learn they cannot make anyone
love them. All they can do
is let themselves be loved.
To learn that it is not good
to compare themselves to others.
To learn to forgive
by practising forgiveness.
To learn that it only takes a few seconds
to open profound wounds in those they love,
and it can take many years to heal them.
To learn that a rich person
is not one who has the most,
but is one who needs the least.
To learn that there are people
who love them dearly,
but simply have not yet learned
how to express or show their feelings.
To learn that two people can
look at the same thing
and see it differently.
To learn that it is not enough that they
forgive one another, but they must also forgive
themselves."
"Thank you for your time," I said humbly.
"Is there anything else
you would like your children to know?"
God smiled and said,
"Just know that I am here... always."
Taken from Patricia Scanlan's Double Wedding.
Page 463-465.
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All men should strive
To learn before they die
What they are running from, and to,
And why.
James Thurber
Christine
11:40 AM
Friday, August 18, 2006
2:48 PM
I'm using Mommy's laptop to blog since some ass doesn't want to let me use the computer. Ughh..
Mommy came to school to pick me up just now. I was with Bear at that time. We're supposed to celebrate our one-month anniversary today. Since the actual day's this Sunday but I can't make it. So we wanted to celebrate before hand. Mommy then headed back to the office after dropping me at our house. Nig was using the computer. I went to bathe first and it was about 1.45 when I came out. I wanted to use the computer for like, half an hour or so, before I left to meet Bear, but he refused. Then we had this minor to major argument thingy. He kept calling Mommy. Such a mommy's boy. Ass. Now Mommy's coming home.
Its not the first time we've quarrelled over the computer. But he kept insisting that he isn't giving way cause I did not give way yesterday. But I don't find the point of giving way since he refused to on Tuesday, and I wasn't going to play or something. I was going to retype my speech for heaven's sake. Its CA2, and Mommy made it seem as if its MY fault for being enthusiastic about doing homework. So fine. And he made it sound like tis perfectly normal to not let me use the computer on Tuesday. Why? Cause "Its my time on using the computer, so I have the rights to decide." Screw you. You're going to freaking flunk your PSLE at the rate you're going.
We had so many plans. Cooking up a meal, going to the basketball court like we always do.. Staying home, whatsoever. But its useless now, I'm stuck home.
I did my speech on Boy-Girl Relationships today. Freaking 18/25. I think Mr. Shafie minused some of my marks cause I said, "I feel that what I'd be saying today would more or less be useful to us - except Mr. Shafie."
Dang.
There goes our first month anniversary.
Christine
2:48 PM
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
11:45 PM
Ahh, just when we thought we got over that, this has to come. We'll still stick together (:
You never listen. I've been trying to get that across to you long, long ago. Dang. Kiss my ass.
Re-typing speech. Lots of editing. Extremely messy. Biatch's (Yanhong) staying up with me now! :D So is Bear (:
I love you.
We'll get through this.
I'll always love you (:
Christine
11:45 PM
Monday, August 14, 2006
3:15 PM
6 more days to our first month (:
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Paris Hilton - Stars are blind.
Just hanging here with you
Cause I don't find too many guys
That treat me like you do
Those other guys
All wanna take me for a ride,
But when I walk, they talk of suicide
Some people never get beyond their stupid pride
But you can see the real me inside
And im satisfied, oh no-o-o-o
Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mi-i-ine.
I can make it nice and naughty
be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Maybe I'm perfect for you
I could be your confidante
Just one of your girlfriends
But I know that's not what you want
If tomorrow the world ends
Why shouldn't we be with the one we really love?
Now tell me who have you been dreaming of
I and I alone, oh no-o-o
Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mi-i-ine.
I can make it nice and naughty
be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Baby I'm perfect for you
Excuse me for feeling
This moment is critical
And maybe we're feeling
We could get physical
Oh no
No, no
Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
If you show me real love baby
I'll show you mi-i-ine.
I can make it nice and naughty
be the devil and angel too
Got a heart and soul and body
Let's see what this love can do
Let's see what love can do
maybe I'm perfect for you
maybe I'm perfect for you
Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
Even though the gods are crazy
Even though the stars are blind
Christine
3:15 PM
Thursday, August 10, 2006
12:13 PM
I've got so many things to blog about. But I just don't know how to start. Okay, lets start with the Eve of National Day's then.
08 August 2006
Met Bear in the morning and we headed for school together. School was half-day. It was the Eve of National Day. And celebrations were going on in school. PRCS Idol's finals were held today as well. Hainani (I think its spelt like that) won the finals. She sang Unfaithful (: Meiyan was really prettaaaayyeeee on that day. She dolled herself up for the Idol's finals. She looked really different. Beautiful still (:
I left after the song of Unfaithful sung by Hainani. I had to arrive at SGH by 11. And it was a distance away from Pasir Ris. Arrived there at about 11.05am. Injection's first. I didn't feel that scared till the doctor stepped in. I asked him where would the injection be, he said, "Here," and he scratched his neck, which misled me, kind of. I thought he was gonna inject my neck. So I panicked. But he later said, "Somewhere on your hand." Didn't really help much, but I figured it was better than being injected on the neck. Doctor was a meanie. He laughed at me. Mommy and Daddy laughed at me too when I cried. Oh, I was extremely brave! I didn't cry.. until I began to walk out of the lift.
Left SGH after the injection. It was only 11+am. I was to return at 2.30pm. So I went to Grandma's house in the mean while. Uncles and Aunties were there too. Didn't see An though. I expected not to see him there as well. Hahahah. For some reasons. Lol.
The Bone Scan was.. easy. But that guy who did the scan and stuffs, reminded me of Mr. Edward Tan. His looks, the way he talked, and laugh. I wonder, if he was Mr. Tan's brother. Prolly. Anyway, the scan required me to lie on this platform thingy, and there was this huge machine above of you (which is supposed to be the camera). Then its like an X-Ray. Just that, each time they scan the picture of each position and angle of your bones, it takes 5 minutes. I fell asleep many times. I think that guy who looked like Mr. Tan fell asleep too. I saw him dozing off.
After the scan, Weening called. She asked if I could join them at Marina Square. Weening, Michelle and Yanhong. I told her no, cause I wanted to go out tomorrow with Bear. She told me okay, and if I were to change my mind, give her a ring.
09 August 2006, National Day! (:
Went for tuitions at Lilin's in the morning. I already had things planned- I'd just leave after tuition to meet Bear -but my plan backfired. I guess. Everything was screwed up. And Mommy appeared at Lilin's doorstep. -.-"
We went to the hospital to visit Grandma. Her heart-beat test failed. It was quite serious. She's still in the hospital now. I miss her. She smiled upon seeing us. I haven't seen her in quite a while. She looks older than I remember. She's still so beautiful, nevertheless.
We left after staying for awhile, and there was this small quarrel between Mommy, Daddy and me. They drove me to Tampines Mall for me to meet Bel. Many uneventful things happened. I don't know why. buteverything just happened. I went back home after awhile, leaving Bear with Shannon. They met Alex and the others later on anyway.
Went back home, and Mich called. She asked if I wanted to go out, they were meeting Bear. I told Mommy I would be meeting Michelle and Yanhong. Mommy called them both. She let me out anyway- she has a very good impression of Yanhong btw.
While waiting for the bus I saw Casper, who sat beside me, unknowingly. He only knew I was there when we boarded the bus. So we chatted for awhile. Happened that he was going to watch the fireworks display too. He was meeting his friend anyways. I met Yanhong at 7eleven. Then we headed to Tampines MRT station to meet Michelle and we met up with Bear and the others before meeting Weening. Weening and Mich tried to get me to apply make-up. -.-"
We went to Marina Bay. Which was extremely crowded. met up with Loewe and Joan as well, but the group was split into two, when we arrived at Marina Bay. Yanhong, Michelle, Weening, Loewe and Joan went to the Esplanade. While the rest of us walked towards our destination for dinner. It was at least an half an hour walk. On the way, Guoxin said he saw a group of people, but the rest of us saw nothing. So I began to get scared. Its the seventh month afterall. So I began to recite Hail Marys and everything.
We had steamboat for dinner. Ate to our fill (: We managed to catch a glimspe of the fireworks! (:
Went home at about 11.20pm. We were all extremely tired by then. We splitted up into 2 groups and cabbed back. Weiji, Rachel and Alan in one. While, Alex, Guoxin, Bear and me took the other. Dickson's dad came to fetch him and Shannon home anyways. (:
Christine
12:13 PM
Monday, August 07, 2006
6:40 PM
Jealousy's taken over me.
They know you so well, even if they don't they act like they do. I don't know. I just.. don't feel secure now. Girls are all around you. Its just no longer safe. I don't know where I actually stand. This feeling sucks. I tried to not be jealous. But its hard.
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Caught up with Emotions.
Christine
6:40 PM
5:47 PM
Today, I played basketball with Alex, Guoxin, Darry, Norvan and a few secondary 2s after school! (: Then I watched Bear play soccer. The game was.. like, a joke. I think. I feel. But they had fun, and that was the main thing. Waited till Bear was finished with his game, before I rushed back to make it for tuition in time. BUT, I called Mommy to check and she told me, lessons at Kent Ridge's over. Over as in, no more. Yah, no more. So I won't be going to KRTC anymore. NO MORE TUITIONS ON MONDAY! :D Make me rush home for nothing. Ughh.
Oh yah, the Debating Finals was today. I popped by for a minute or two while Bear was playing. Azeemah was doing the talking when I was there. I heard that 3.5 won the Debate. Grats 3.5-vers (:
Injection tomorrow! ):
Rihanna - P/S, I'm still not over you
Whats up?
I know we haven't spoken for a while
But I was thinkin bout you
And it kinda made me smile
So many things to say
And I'll put em in a letter
But it might be easier
The words might come out better
How's your mother, how's your little brother?
Does he still look just like you?
So many things I wanna know the answers to
Wish I could press rewind
And rewrite every line
To the story of me and you
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you ya you
Still not over you ya you
Excuse me, I really didn't mean to ramble on
But there's a lot of feelings that still remain after you were gone
I guess you thought that I would put it all behind me
But it seems there's always somethin right there to remind me
Like a silly joke, or somethin on the t.v.
Boy it aint easy
When I hear our song
I get that same old feeling
Wish I could press rewind
Turn back the hands of time
And I shouldn't be telling you ya you
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you ya you
Still not over you yea
Did you know I kept all of your pictures
Don't have the strength to part with them yet
Oh no....
Tried to erase the way your kisses taste
But some things a girl can never forget
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
But it don't get no better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I've got nothin to lose
Hope to hear from you soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
oohh..
Still not over you
and how i have tried to for get you
Don't you know I've tried and I've tried
To get you out my mind
but it dont get know better
As each day goes by
And I'm lost and confused
I'v got nothin to lose
hope you to hear from soon
P.S. I'm still not over you
still not over you
Christine
5:47 PM
Sunday, August 06, 2006
8:21 PM
I miss Bear (:
Injection's 2 days away! ):
Christine
8:21 PM
Saturday, August 05, 2006
3:36 PM
Yesterday was a long long day. After school, there was CCA. Weening and me attended, but we left halfway. Then we met Yanhong at Macs. Which we then went to the basketball court to meet Bear(: and friends. Shortly after we arrived, Christian showed up too. Michelle found us also (: I tried shooting balls. But I kept missing continuously. Oh, I also tried riding Alex's bike! Unfortunately, I crashed into a whole bunch of other bikes. Dang. We hung around the court till about 6.30pm before I headed home.
Went for tuition at Jiang. And left for home.
Weening called me while I was on my way home. She said she's definitely going to the chalet. She informed me that Mich's going too, so I kind of wanted to go as well. I already told her I'd go if Mich and her were going. Besides, darling was there too (: So, I asked Mommy if I could go. She agreed. But of course she didn't know I was going to some guy's chalet..
Dad drove us there. He picked Weening, Michelle, Weening's brother and his friend at the bustop opposite school, and alighted us at the open carpark opposite Downtown- I told him we were heading to Macs for supper first. We then walked there. Which was approximately an hour's walk from downtown.
We arrived at the chalet at last, with the birthday boy coming out to the bustop to show us the way in. Many of them were seated outside the chalet, near the barbeque pit. Many of them, seemed familiar. But I never knew who. Somehow, they managed to know us. And they said hi. And I finally know, his name's Kenneth. The one who disturbed me alot.
Kenneth: "We must take initiative! (grabs a chair and places it next to mine, smiles) Hello."
Me: "Hello. (smiles back)"
First guy: "Eh, Kenneth! Come leh. (want to pass him/tell him something.)"
Kenneth: "Don't want! (says jokingly) I'm attracted to this girl. (smiles again)"
Second guy: "Oi! That one not Belvin's girlfriend meh?!"
Kenneth: "Belvin! Really ar?!"
Belvin looked over and nodded.
Kenneth: "Walau! Why no one tell me earlier?!"
I smiled at him.
Darling, Jeffston Alphaeous and me then went to the basketball court to play abit of basketball. Darling piggybacked me and turned me in circles- which was quite scary at first, but I have to admit, it was quite fun. Darling and me left later, with Jeffston and Alphaeous. Jeffston's mother gave us a lift! :D Reached home at close to 4a.m.
Grilled by Mom and Dad when I arrived home. But, I was in a good good mood.
Its the first time I spent so much time with him outside, and, its my first time staying out till so late with him. I'm over the moon. Hahahahahahahahhahahahaa (:
I love you, Bear (:
Oh, Went to CGH for my appointment with the specialist- regarding my backaches. Refferred to SGH for a bone scan on Tuesday. There's going to be an injection! ):
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You had my head up in the clouds.
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Rihanna-Final Goodbye.
I never should of waited so long to say
What I've always known since the very first day
Thought that you would stay forever with me
But the time has come to leave
Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life
Its you that I live for, and for you I die
So I'll Lay here with you til the final goodbye
Hold, draw me close, close to my lips
Listen intently as I tell you this
Outside the world wages its rewards, I'll rest in peace as long as you know
Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life
Its you that I live for, and for you I die
So I'll Lay here with you til the final goodbye
Promise you our love will carry on
Until you turn eternal, we belong
Before we turn out the lights and close our eyes
I'll tell you a secret I've held all my life
It's you that I live for, and for you I die
So I'll lay here with you till the final goodbye
His respectful lips for the last time
And spell out the lyrics to love in the sky
Its you that I live for and for you I die
So I'll lay here with you till the final goodbye
Goodbye
Christine
3:36 PM
The Cab - Vegas Skies...
