The shadows of ringdoves chanting but chasing nothing.

Sunday, July 30, 2006

6:44 PM

Out of boredom, from Friendster.

--- 10 favorites :

o1. favorite color:Red, Purple, black and white.

o2. favorite food:Ice cream and chocs!

o3. favorite band/singer:Check out my profile.

o4. favorite song:Rihanna - Unfaithful, Fort Minor - Whered you go, Fallout Boys - Dance dance, Cascada - Everytime we touch.

o5. favorite movie:Harry Potter & Pirates of the Caribbean (Is it spelt like that?)

o6. favorite sport:Hate exercising. That explains what I am today.

o7. favorite season:Autumn.

o8. favorite day of the week:Whenever I get to see him (:

o9. favorite ice cream flavor:Chocolate!

1o. favorite drink:Umm.

--- 9 currents...

o1. current mood:Loved (:

o2. current taste:I want Ben and Jerry's.

o3. current clothes:Three-quarter denim and shirt.

o4. current desktop:Huh?

o5. current time:6.30pm

o6. current surroundings:My private space.

o7. current annoyance:Yet to study for Physics tmr.

o8. current thought:I'm going to Downtown and he's there now!

o9. current hair:Black? Natural hair colour.

--- 8 firsts...

o1. first best friend:Glenda, then Rachel, then Joyna, and now, Meiyan, Yvonne and Joyna.

o2. first kiss:For me to know and you to find out (:

o3. first screen name:Er..

o4. first pet:Bobby my pet turtle

o5. first piercing:When I was still young.

o6. first crush:Primary 6......

o7. first music:Westlife's.

o8. first car:I'll get my first if I make it into University.

--- 7 lasts...

o1. last person u called:Daddy.

o2. last person u met:My family?

o3. last person u texted:Bel. (:

o4. last person u think of:Fattybear! (:

o5. last person u talked to:Mommy.

o6. last person u emailed:None.

o7. last person u kissed:Daddy.

--- 6 have you evers...

o1. dated one of your best friends:No.

o2. broken the law:No! Good girl okay!

o3. been arrested:No. Duh.

o4. skinny dipped:Fat hope.

o5. been on TV:Umm.

o6. kissed someone you didn't know:My Owen? On TV? No I'm just kidding.

--- 5 things you can't live without...

1. Bel (:2. My Girlfriends.3. Handphone.4. Mommy Daddy Brother (:5. Cash.

--- 4 things you've done today...

1. Went to the docs.2. Talked to fattybear! (:3. Tuition.4. Messaged.

--- 3 things you can hear right now...

1. Dance dance - Fallout Boys.2. Mommy nagging3. Cascada - Everytime we touch - My
handphone's message alarm tone just went off.

--- 2 people you adore...

1. Fattybear and friends.2. Family.

--- 1 thing you do when you're bored...1. Sleep

Christine
6:44 PM

1:15 PM

Grandma told me, " I can't stay with you anymore, cause I'm too old to climb the stairs everyday." And she's moving out once more.

I miss her.

Christine
1:15 PM

Saturday, July 29, 2006

10:18 PM

Ahh, much has happened lately. Too much for us/me, to take. Its hard to "absorb" it all. PTM on Thursday. Parents met up with Ms Lim and Mr Yeo. Talked about you-know-who and mainly about mother, and my lack of communication. All's okay. Sorry to disappoint you both, but I still won't leave him.

Went to All Saints, nursing home yesterday (: We were afraid, and nervous when we arrived. But we felt sad when we saw them. Tried talking to them, and tried to cheer them up. There was this uncle who was extremely smart and could speak many languages, Hakka, Hokkien, Teochew, English, Mandarin and even French. God, he was so smart. Then in the next bed, there was this Uncle who was extremely cheerful. Optimistic ahpek. Lol. =x

Christian was being silly and said, "I'd probably commit suicide when I'm 50," when he overheard Joyna and me discussing what we'll probably be like when we're old. And he randomly commented that the food they served in the Home smelt and looked good. So we told him to stay there then. He made a face. KS and Weiji were behaving themself, suprisingly. They were nice and kind to the Old Folks.

Tuition yesterday was filled with bitching and gossiping. Being the usual bitches we are. (:

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Keyaki for brunch today. Heavy breakfast cum lunch. My baby cousin, who is like, 5 this year. So he isn't exactly baby, but heck, he still acts as one. He was with my brother, my cousin and me when he met this small girl, around his age. And they started communicating through sign launguages cause he was inside and she was out. It was an amazing sight. Really. So cute, two little kids. He went out after a while, and they two walked around the little garden in Keyaki. Interesting.

My back ached so much, I couldn't help but cry. I'm not the cry-y type of person but it just hurt, that bad. Went to the arcade in Marina Square, met Wilson (: Haven't seen him for the past 2 years I think. Its good to see an old friend.

Went to play CS with my little brother and cousin, but I left as soon as Mommy came over. Went shopping, but did not really manage to buy anything, due to time constrain.

Darling's at central. Walking home, prolly. 9 days of love and much more. (:

mypreciousBel (:

Christine
10:18 PM

Wednesday, July 26, 2006

4:49 PM

Everyone wishes to be given a second chance when he/she has made a mistake, or has been bad before. Everyone deserves a second chance. Society has been promoting the yellow ribbon project thingy out there. So why isn't he given a chance?

He's changing. Giving him a chance isn't to look at his background, whats more, past. I just don't understand. You just don't make sense. And stop treating me like a primary 3. Worrying is inevitable, but I'm already grown up. I know what I'm doing. Respect my decisions, and privacy.

You read my messages. And when my teachers finally tell you its wrong, you give them crap and excuses that you care about me. If its the first time, I'd forgive you. In fact, I forgave you. But you did it twice, thrice, and what? How many more times will you do it again? You claim that I don't gain your trust. But think over, have you? Obviously, you still have not understood why I ran away the other time - cause you'd never listen - and you're doing it again. You're just uncomprehendable. Stop using "worrying" as an excuse. I won't believe you either, cause you've done it time and again - you just don't gain my trust. Its pointless to rant so much out here, cause you'll never get to read this anyway..

So bugger off.

-

Save me.

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Syafiqah's choice of song for the PRCS Idol Auds.

Rihanna - Unfaithful.

Story of my life
Searching for the right
But it keeps avoiding me
Sorrow in my soul
Cause it seems that wrong
Really loves my company

He's more than a man
And this is more than love
The reason that the sky is blue
The clouds are rolling in
Because I'm gone again
To him I just can't be true

And I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I am happy with some other guy
I can see him dyin'

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be.... a murderer

I feel it in the air
As I'm doin my hair
Preparing for another date
A kiss upon my cheek
As he reluctantly
Asks if I'm gonna be out late
I say I won't be long
Just hangin' with the girls
A lie I didn't have to tell
Because we both know
Where I'm about to go
And we know it very well

Cause I know that he knows I'm unfaithful
And it kills him inside
To know that I'm happy with some other guy
I can see him dyin'

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
Everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be.... murderer

Our love... his trust
I might as well take a gun
And put it to his head
Get it over with
I don't wanna do this... anymore

Oooohhh... anymore

I don't wanna do this anymore
I don't wanna be the reason why
And everytime I walk out the door
I see him die a little more inside
And I don't wanna hurt him anymore
I don't wanna take away his life
I don't wanna be.... a murderer

...murderer

No no no

yeah yeah yeah

Christine
4:49 PM

Tuesday, July 25, 2006

6:54 PM

CCA today. Screwed in the ass by Mrs Henry. I had gastrics but she refused to let me leave early, because she didn't believe me. And I am to be down this coming friday, and next tuesday, and next friday, and next next friday. Dang. But smartyB(: reminded me that this coming friday we have got CIP. So, yah. Have to tell Mrs Henry. Its not my fault. I guess. I hope. Parents coming home soon. =x

Christine
6:54 PM

Sunday, July 23, 2006

1:30 PM

Went to the doctors today. Urinary infection. Dang. I'm actually able to get a day off from school tomorrow. But, I thought of the PRCS auditions and I promised Meiyan I'd be there to cheer for her. So I only requested for MC for P.E. I'm such a good friend :D

Nothing much happened in the past few days. Yvonne did not come to school on Friday. So it was just Meiyan, Gladys, Weening and me for recess. Meiyan and Gladys then went to Yvonne's place to pass her her homework. I didn't follow. Cause I had tuitions after that. Went to tuition yesterday also, after Math Remedial in the morning. There were 3 Coral girls. One of them saw me and said, "Pasir Ris Crest. Do you know Joyna. Joyna Chua?" so I just looked at her and said, "Yah. My best friend?" She shot me back this really shocked look. Then she asked which class was she in. That girl made me feel weird. Prolly Joyna's primary school friend? Maybe.

I saw Carian in school again yesterday. And he reminded me that his birthday's round the corner again. Lol.

Oh, before I forget. Happy Belated Birthday Kelvin!!! :D I already wished him last night. But yah (:

Christine
1:30 PM

Thursday, July 20, 2006

6:06 PM

Everything's messy, confusing and doubtful. I don't know who to belief. Its just not fair.

Today was a weird day. Everything wasn't going that smoothly. Stayed back in class to listen to our PRCS contestants from 3.4 sing. Everyone did well. Then some of us stayed back a little longer to "practise" with them. But we ended up fooling around and blasting Faz's MP3. I left hen Darryl came up to class to find me. He was given instructions to send me home. Yanxiang was downstairs.

Christine
6:06 PM

Wednesday, July 19, 2006

7:32 PM

Uhh, school's been pretty mucht he same. Gastric's back.. again. Went to the docs yesterday and he suggested I go for scope. ): And he said, "Don't worry. The tube's only slightly bigger than this (and he held up the thingy he uses to check his patients)." Wth, I am so not going. (:

The medicine he gave me was also.. prolly one of the strongest. Since the name's ultrasomthing and its for stomach ulsers. I think its pretty gross. I puke my dinner out. Cause I feel like it sometimes. Muhahaha.

We're going to the old folk's home. For CIP. And I'm in the games team. We're supposed to come up and plan with games and stuffs. I told them about the Fashion Parade Paris and Nicole had the other time, but they said we didn't have time. So Dzakir suggested we threaten them "Want to change fast not?! Don't want?! Fine! No food!" Ms Lim looked at him with disguist. Such a meanie!

Then Redzuan said, "Play Simon says lah. Easiest." So Yvonne was like, how? Then he said, "Simon says, go to bed! And everyone will go sleep, then we don't have to do anything!" (HAHA!) It would be great. But it wouldn't work.

Song lyrics for Christina Aguilera's Beautiful. The song PJ's gonna sing for the Idol auditions! (:
The lyrics are extremely meaningful. So.. take a look.

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the fame, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone and the puzzle undone
That's the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words won't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words won't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today...

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
We're the song inside the tune
Full of beautiful mistakes

And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun will always shine
(sun will always shine)
And tomorrow we might wake on the other side
All the other times

We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down
We are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today

Christine
7:32 PM

Tuesday, July 18, 2006

6:17 PM

Had my haircut on Sunday. My fringe's kind of short now. My hair's layered already (:

Today was ohkay. Did not go for CCA because I had terrible backaches. I'm so tired. NSW's English paper was okay. But, i kind of tikam tikam anyhow answer, cause I was already dozing off in the middle of the paper. But, thank goodness its not counted in the End-Of-Years exams.

6 more days till PRCS idol's audition. Muahhahas, can't wait to see if Meiyan get in =x

Christine
6:17 PM

Monday, July 17, 2006

4:16 PM

Oh.My.God. Running away actually solves everyyything. Though I made them worried sick. I know, I'm sorry. But, she actually understands, she realised.

"You kick up the leaves and the magic is lost."
We're still friends (:

Christine
4:16 PM

Sunday, July 16, 2006

5:48 PM

Blog song's up. I'm committed to this blog now. Irony. One minute, I went M.I.A, and now I'm here daily. (:

Song's Fort Minor's Where'd you go anyway. Love this song. I'd probably upload Rihanna's SOS or Pon De Replay after this. I'M A FAN OF RIHANNA! :D Lol. -.-"

Fort Minor's - Where'd you go

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.

She said "Some days I feel like shit,
Some days I wanna quit, and just be normal for a bit,"
I don't understand why you have to always be gone,
I get along but the trips always feel so long,
And, I find myself tryna stay by the phone,
'Cause your voice always helps me when I feel so alone,
But I feel like an idiot, workin' my day around the call,
But when I pick up I don't have much to say,
So, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

You know the place where you used to live,
Used to barbeque up burgers and ribs,
Used to have a little party every Hallowe'en with candy by the pile,
But now, you only stop by every once in a while,
Shit, I find myself just fillin' my time,
Anything to keep the thought of you from my mind,
I'm doin' fine, I plan to keep it that way,
You can call me if you find you have somethin' to say,
And I'll tell you, I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', at times debatin',
Tellin' you that I've had it with you and your career,
Me and the rest of the family here singing "Where'd you go?"

I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...

I want you to know it's a little fucked up,
That I'm stuck here waitin', no longer debatin',
Tired of sittin' and hatin' and makin' these excuses,
For while you're not around, and feeling so useless,
It seems one thing has been true all along,
You don't really know what you got 'til it's gone,
I guess I've had it with you and your career,
When you come back I won't be here and you'll can sing it...

Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone.
Where'd you go?
I miss you so,
Seems like it's been forever,
That you've been gone,
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...
Please come back home...

Christine
5:48 PM

7:17 AM

Its so early in the morning, and I'm already blogging. But heck, I won't be able to use the computer later.

Pirates was daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn good!

It was faaaaaantastic. Orlando Bloom was soooooooo cute. Pirates has like, everything. Its like, watching a comedy, adventurous, thrilling and exciting movie all at one time. Its a movie that will keep you on the edge of your seat at all times- at least it did to me. And, the part where Orlando met his Dad was also touching.

We met up with my brothers friends and they told us that one of us had to sit away (alone) on the other side cause there isn't anymore seats left. So fine, who goes? Me! Ughh, but their small kids afterall. So nevermind. It was my first time sitting alone to watch a movie, and suprisingly. Sitting alone wasn't that bad. Cause you'll give the movie your full concentration.

I give the movie 4 out of 5 stars, with an additional star for the fact that they were smart enough to get Orlando Bloom to act in it. (He looks so cute.) So in all, I give them 5 out of 5 stars!

After the movie, some of the boys wanted to head to the arcade (you know. boys.) while some wanted to stay to watch the whole movie, as in, after the credits. Cause normally theres something behind. So I was kept busy to babysit these kids. They managed to watch the end of it though. After a loong looong wait. Yah. Then they all headed to the arcade.

There, I met Belvin and Lianjie. Oh, and I hijacked one of Belvin's car's and made him turn to the pit. that caused him to lose to Lianjie in Daytona (: Hung around the arcade. Lianjie Belvin and I were beginning to feel tired standing up. So we went to the game machines wth seats. Supposed to go cut hair, but quite late already so, I postphoned it to today instead.

Communication problems. I waited at the MRT station for my mother but she didn't turn up. And I stood like a fool for like what, 15 minutes? Saw Sweemin (who was meeting Adelyn and friends) and Shing Jiuan with many other netballers at the station.

Met up with Bel and Lian again (They were babysitting this time-helping me look after my brother). I gave the boys one last game to play. Bel and Lian went for another round of Daytona again. Bel told me not to touch him car. (HAHA) So i sat on the "motorbike" game's "motorbike" and watched them play. My brother was done. So they came to meet us. One of his friends shaked the motorbike I was on, causing me to shriek. Belvin laughed. Meanie.

We brought them for dinner. They wanted Macs, but it was crowded. So we decided to go to Long John's instead. Those brats ran up the stairs and being the usual kind, caring, compassionate, loving sister I am, I followed them up the stairs too. Bel and Lian climbed up also. Which was quite funny cause all 3 of us were making so much noises. Then those brats hid in Long John's and spied on me, while I was trying to find them. But I still saw them, cause there was this small boy who was giggling and the others pulled him in.

Saw Shing Jiuan and other netballers there. And they very kindly gave us their seat, and asked if I was babysitting. Yes, I was. Argh. The boys sat together while I sat with Bal and Lian. The table was too small. Lian or Bel, one of them told me my brother called me and when I turned to look, one of them, threw fries into my drink. Then we had to "OhyaBeiyasom" in which loser go gets more Chilli. I found out that they cheated anyways, they always said something like "Belvin Jeffston Belvin Jeffston Belvin!" Something like that then they started the "Ohyabeiyasom". But I went to get the chilli cause I didn't know at first. We couldnt finish our food. And Lian suggested "Ohyabeiyasom one more time, loser eat up all these." So we played. Lianjie lost. But he refused to eat it up and started acting depressed which was.. a failure. Our remaining food added up to a Combo.

Brought the guys back by MRT, walked through the park with Bel, Lianjie, my brother, and his friends. Reached home and bathed, did some Math, and fell asleep. I was so tired.

I better off the computer soon. Real soon.

Christine
7:17 AM

Saturday, July 15, 2006

1:06 PM

I've changed my blogskin, and I'm back to blogging :D

I can't figure how to get this thingy off, the Site Info thing. When I remove the codes for that, my posts are scrawled all over the girl's face. So I'll just leave it for the time being. I kinda like this skin. Its simple. Reminds me of an iPod, which I happen to love alot.

I'm thinking of removing the blog password thing as well. Its troublesome. And everyone's beginning to lock their blogs up. -.-"

I went with The Privilliged(s) to today's Math lesson. Ms Lim calls it the Premium Math Club or something. I cant remember. But yah. Carian reminded me that his birthday's 11 days from now. Which happens to be a day after Christian's. Oh, Weikiong got my Tamagotchi confiscated too (though I'm pretty sure Ms Lim will return it (: ). I think my Math's improving. And, I'm quite confident of yesterday's test. The Math test on circles. I think I can do quite well for it (If never do well, so malu). Yah, which I think is good. Cause I'm beginning to like Math quite alot now.

Gonna catch Pirates Of The Carribean with my brother and his friends later. I think I'd be confused throughout the show cause I didn't watch the first one. but, if its not a sequel or what (which I think it is), then I'd be able to understand, I guess. I hope.

Blogging's so foreign to me now =x

Christine
1:06 PM